Cleaning it Up

I have moved

2011-01-01T08:34:00.000-08:00

http://runningtoahealthierlife.blogspot.com/

Hope you all come to my new blog. Don't expect any major changes, just hopefully more interesting reading :)

The last blog entry...

2010-12-31T12:57:00.000-08:00

of 2010 and for this blog. I will be starting my new blog tomorrow. It won't be any huge change. I will just be doing more pictures etc.

I went to WW this morning and I was only up 3.8 lbs which is much better then it would have been. I am actually down about 5 lbs since this is my erd day being back on track. I bought a new tracker today to have a complete fresh start.

I am excited about supper tonight. Steak, Salad, sweet potato and veggies. Not quite sure what I will be having for snacks tonight. Some veggies and hummus maybe. I amy have to have something sweet too.

It is hard to believe that the year is going to be done after midnight. I am quite pleased with things that I have done this year.

1. Made exercise a daily thing in my life...for the most part. I missed a couple of days but usually managed to do some form of activity.

2. Took up running. I ran 2 5K races, a 10K race and 2 half marathons.

3. Learned about clean eating and using this method of eating i reached my goal weight for WW'ers. I reached my happy weight in the fall but the last couple of months I lost my focus and put on some weight.

4. I was working a temp full time position for most of the year but accepted a permanet one in October.

5. Went on a camping trip down east in the summer

6. Went to vegas with a friend from work

Overall I would say 2010 was a great year and I am going to work on making 2011 an even better year.

Goals:

1. Get back to my happy weight

2. Complete the around the bay road race

3. try new recipes

4. keep my house organized

5. be better with my finances

6. enjoy 2011 and make the best of it.

Happy New Year everyone.

Day 2 almost done...

2010-12-30T15:31:00.000-08:00

and I have been doing great with the eating. Even though I had lunch out with 2 girls from work I managed to stay within my pt range. I still have 3 pts left and am not sure what to do with them. I had slotted in an orange too that I haven't eaten yet. I think that I will have that after I am done this blog and then maybe I will grill a banana and drizzle some chocolate (85%) on it. That actually sounds like a great treat and I will have a diet coke with it.

Tomorrow I am gearing up for a 5K run. I just hope that it isn't raining out. I may still do it if it is just raining a bit but if it is pouring out I will run on the treadmill. I will be doing my WI too. I know I will be up from the last time I was there but I know what my scale said yesterday and I will use that to guauge my success on the weight loss front. I want to get these lbs off quickly as possible but in a healthy way.

Have a great night everyone.

I did it

2010-12-30T07:36:00.000-08:00

I am actually very happy with myself that I was OP yesterday. I was planning on going to bootcamp this morning but I ended up going for a walk instead. I will be back to the grind with bootcamp on Jan 3rd for 6 am :)

Tomorrow I have a 5K run planned. Not quite sure what route I will do but probably a flat one since on saturday I have to try and get 12K done and I hope to do it on the course.

I am going to lunch with a couple of girls from work and then I have to head out to the other end of the city to have my eye looked at. Hopefully he tells me it looks alot better :) Outward to me it looks and feels a lot better but I am a little worried about the vision in that eye. Maybe my glasses are just not strong enough?? something to look into that is for sure. I guess I should have done that before I got my new glasses.

Well I must be off for now. I will let you know how lunch went and here is to another OP day :) Oh yeah and I am sucking it up and heading in to WW tomorrow. I want to get a new 3 month tracker and my goal is to fill it with all OP days and as clean as possible :)

mini rewards

2010-12-29T15:41:00.000-08:00

I figure that I have about 20 lbs to get off so I am going to give myself rewards for each 5 lbs that I get off.

1st 5 lbs - new running jacket

2nd 5 lbs - new hair color

3rd 5 lbs - buy some yoga sessions

4th 5 lbs - revamp my wardrobe after maintaining this loss for a month

each week that I manage to stay OP I will get 2 tanning sessions for myself. I have to complete a perfect week though.

I will get this weight off and will remember how easily it comes back on when I am not focused on my health.

Pedicure was awesome :)

starting my new blog jan 1st...

2010-12-29T08:08:00.000-08:00

It won't be much different then this one but I will be trying to put more pictures on it which makes blogs so much more fun to read and that is my goal.

Had a break down last night :( Moving on. I think my head is in the right place.

Going for a pedicure this afternoon. Very excited about this. I haven't had one in forever and really need one done.

I went for a 5K run this morning. My knee felt great which was reassuring. I really think that I was trying to run too fast and that is why my knee hurt. On saturday I am going to try to do 12Km's on part of the course. I am going to go to the hilly portion or the course which should be interesting. I will wear the knee support just incase.

I had the 2nd portion of my oatmeal this morning which was very yummy.

For lunch the turkey burgers will be making a comeback :) I need to get groceries and I will make sure that I have stuff to make chili as I love chili over sweet potato and that is so easy for when I am working. I think that I want my salad combo tonight so I will have go get some lettuce, spinach and mushrooms and some more goatcheese. I will go through the cookbooks that I have to try and come up with some ideas for foods. My big thing will be in the evenings. I need to be done with the oatmeal snack. there is no reason that I should be eating something that heavy before I go to bed.

I am going to make a batch of the kasha breakfast pudding. I love having that for b'fast. It will be a change from my oatmeal but yet still something hot which I love in the mornings. I need to think of something lower pt for b'fast too. I will have to make sure to stick with the 1/2 c portion size.

Well I am going to sign off for now and start making my weekly menu and look on-line for some clean recipes.

Have a great day everyone

A debate

2010-12-28T18:29:00.000-08:00

with myself. This has been a common occurence lately. I can start tomorrow with eating clean. Well all this "starting tomorrow" has addes the lbs on so I need to stay strong right now and if I really want to have something to eat, eat an apple. But since it is 9:30 I need to ask myself do I really need something to eat this late at night. I just had my oatmeal treat so i can't really be hungry. it was such a huge bowl too that hunger can't be the issue. I would love to just go to bed but I can't yet since my wonderful husband is not home yet and the kids are still up.

I need to remember too that I want to run 5k in the morning and if I eat anything else my stomach will feel so sluggish that I won't have a good quality sleep. Oh the debates I have with myself.

The big question is will I eat or won't I...stay tuned for tomorrow to find out how I did for the remainder of the night.

Trip to the mall

2010-12-28T14:09:00.000-08:00

I was on a mission to find me some glasses and I was successful :) The best part was that they were ready in an hour. I know I paid quite a bit for them but thankfully I have coverage and ended up only having to pay $56 for them. It is quite an adjustment getting used to wearing glasses all the time. Tomorrow morning I will be getting up and trying to go for a 5K run with them. I am a bit behind on my runs so i will try to do 5K wed, fri and a longer run on sat. I will start week 3 of training on sunday before heading to work. I really hope my knee will be ok if I don't try to run as fast as I had been.

supper was chili over a sweet potato once again. that is what I had last night and I had the other half of the sweet potato tonight. such a yummy combination. My goal is to make it through the rest of the night without having any junk food. I will have my oatmeal treat when i get home from my friends house providing I don't eat anything else tonight. I will probably only have 1 drink at her place. I will sip it very slowly.

I am feeling a bit less bloated from all the crap that I have been putting in my body. I am really hoping that I will feel a bit more healthy in the next couple of days.

night everyone.

Christmas is over...

2010-12-28T09:24:00.000-08:00

well the eating part anyways. Wow I have totally been out of control with fewer good days then bad days so today I woke up and realized that I need to get my focus totally back. I have been saying this for a long time now but I have to do it. I feel like such a bloated mess right now and I need to feel healthy again. I have about 20 lbs to get off and I am hoping that the 1st 10 will come off pretty fast since they seemed to come on quickly. I will go to WW and WI on the 31st just to face the music. I am going to buy a new tracker since this last one that I have is full of binges etc.

GOALS FOR 2011

clean eating for 2011...to make sure it is a lifestyle that stays

run the around the bay 30k road race

run another 1/2 marathon provided my knee survives the bay race

organize my house

pay off some debts (or a portion of them...goal is to do this in 2 yrs)

try new recipes from my clean eating books/magazines

stay active

NO BINGES

Those are just a few of my goals for this year. My big one is to get back to my healthy weight I was at in the fall. My body felt so healthy when I was in the low 130's and I really want to get back to that point.

So I saw the opthamolgist yesterday and he told me I have some ulcers on my eyes and that I really should not wear my contacts for at least a month or 1 1/2 months. I am going to have to head to the mall and get some decent glasses. I am not sure what I will be doing about running and bootcamp though. I am not one to exercise with my glasses. I am seeing him on thursday and I am going to ask him what he thinks about me wearing them for a max of 1 hr a day so that I can do my exercise. If not I will be doing blind exercise. Maybe once my new glasses that fit my face better come in I will be more comfortable running with them on. I am going to try and go out before supper tonight and run 5K so we will see how that goes. I am going to go without my glasses though and I may even wear sunglasses b/c my eyes are still sensitive to light.

We all slept in here today. My little man was up early but then he fell back to sleep with us which was so awesome. It was actually the cat that woke us all up.

Here is to a day of staying on track...plus 1 or 2 drinks with a friend. I may not even like what she is having since it will be martinis and it may be too strong for me.

I will check in tonight and let you know how the eating day has gone.

Training on hold for a bit

2010-12-27T09:11:00.000-08:00

I am a little dissapointed that I did not do my run yesterday. I am really hoping to be able to get out and do 5K tomorrow but we will see. My issue has nothing to do with my legs it has to do with my eye. Not quite sure what is going on with it. As you all know I have been having issues on and off since the beginning of Dec. finally last night I went down to the ER since I was already working at the hospital. He thinks it may be pink eye (I am not convinced) but he did set me up with an opthamolgist who I am seeing at 4 today. I have to get someone to drive me as he is going to dilate my pupils. I think I would have to anyway since it hurts to keep my eyes open. I just need to make sure I bring some sunglasses with me. I hope that I can find that clipons. I have totally been styling with my big glasses. I really need to get a decent pair of glasses. I will be wearing them more then my contacts for a bit until my eye clears up. I would love to run but 1. I won't run with my glasses and 2. I think the bouncing would hurt my eyes.

I enjoyed a lot of food of c-mas and now it is time to get back 100% on track with the clean eating (well almost 100%...bac to where I was when I was at my lowest weight). I have about 15-20 lbs to get off to be back to that great weight and the sooner I start the better. I will be going to get weighed in Dec 31st and I will buy myself a new 3 month tracker and give myself that period of time do do it. There is no way I am allowing myself to go back to the point I was. I was so happy with myself a couple of months ago and I want to be back at that point. My eating was healthy, my body felt great with the exercise I was doing and mentally I was doing great. I just totally fell off the wagon and was somewhat in denial. It sure does not take long to pack on the pounds and I really hope it won't take longer then the 3 months to get the weight back off.

Well I hope everyone is having a great monday. I will give you an update on the eye thing this evening.

2nd training run

2010-12-21T04:40:00.000-08:00

I so did not want to get out of bed this morning, but I did and I complete my 2nd day of training. it was 1Kmx4 reps 6 min/km with 4 min jog btw reps. I am proud of myself for 1 being able to get out of bed and 2 for doing this successfully. I think that fact that I had a great day of eating helped too. REMEMBER that!!!!!

Just hanging around the house today. I really need to try and get some house work done. Tomorrow I am at work so I have today, thursday and friday to get things done before I have to work for the weekend.

I am looking forward to c-mas morning. I have someone coming in to work for me a hr early so that I get to go home...make sure all the things are under the tree and hopefully wake up the kids.

Tomorrow after work I need to make myself hit the gym for an hr of cross training. I just hope that work isn't too crazy busy. I guess it would be a great way to unwind after work. I haven't done something like that in a long time. I will try and do 30 min cardio and 30 min strength training/stretching.

I am going to enjoy my coffee and get caught up on other blogs. Have a great day everyone. 4 more sleeps :)

1st day of training...

2010-12-19T06:34:00.000-08:00

I can't believe that it is actually here. I have been saying, oh but I don't have to start training until Dec 19th...well that would be today. Where has the time gone and where has my focus gone. If I am going to take my training seriously it is not just the exercise that I need to focus on. I need to pay attention to the fuel I am putting in my body too. So even though it is the holiday season with tons of foods etc I am going to try and just put clean fuel in my body with maybe a perk here and there but not if it is going to make me binge!!!! I already know what my squares taste like so do I really need to have more of them??? I dont' think so.

so I headed out for a 5K run with a 6:15/km pace. I ended up going a bit faster then that but overall it was a great run and I went a lot faster then what I normally run which is why the fuel needs to be clean.

We have a famil c-mas party and I need to go pick up our pictures at the superstore after lunch. I am a little disappointed in them. My boys did not do a very good job. They don't do well with pictures, well M does for his school and sport pics but not these ones. We did manage to pick out a couple that will do.

Well that will be all. heading out soon to watch the little one practice hockey. He doesn't know this but Santa is coming :)

Reading some older entries

2010-12-18T16:59:00.000-08:00

Even when I was at a less weight I still had issues with binging. I so need to deal with this issue.

Had a veggie edge pizza tonight as we had family pics done and we would be late getting home so we ate out. Very yummy. I made 2 different types of cakes for tomorrow. They are yummy. I of course had to try both kinds.

Tomorrow will be a fresh start and before I put something in my mouth I need to evaluate the situation. I will allow myself a piece of each of my cakes tomorrow. Monday the clean eating focus will be back and I will try to do my best over the holiday season.

Training Starts Tomorrow

2010-12-18T05:31:00.000-08:00

and I need to get my eating under control. i did well with my first week on the new WW program but the last 2 days have been awful and in turn I feel awful. I realize that I am the only one that can fix this so that is my focus for the rest of the year. I am going to have a wonderful 2011 and overcome this food addiction that I have. I need to get it undercontrol for many reasons but 1 is that I will be starting to train for my next race tomorrow.

I know that it seems so silly but food addiction is a real problem and I have it. Once i have sugary foods I just can't seem to stop. I eat so much until my stomach hurts and then the next day I feel hung over etc. I am going to beat this thing. I need to avoid these foods. They don't even really taste that good so I don't understand why i do what i do.

Moving on is all I can do.

I made the Kasha breakfast pudding this morning and after i get back from my walk this morning I am going to have some. I have made it before and love it. It is from one of Tosca Reno's cookbooks.

well i must get ready to go for my walk. I will have a great week and hopefully when I go for my WI on friday the damage will have been undone from the last 2 days.

Results of Week 1 on the Points Plus Program

2010-12-15T18:28:00.000-08:00

I am very happy to report that I lost 6 Lbs. That is so great and i can't believe that I didn't feel deprived at all. I did have a couple of days that I had more then my pts so this week I am very motivated to stay within my alotted pts. It hopefully won't be too hard with dinner out tomorrow night and then the Family c-mas party on sunday. I am making 2 desserts for sunday and I won't deprive myself. I will have a small piece of each of them.

I did a hr long bootcamp class after getting home from work this morning. It was such an awesome class. I am sure to feel it in some of my muscles tomorrow. I plan on doing a 6K run early in the morning before my hubby goes to work.

I need to clean tomorrow afternoon while my sons group is going on and maybe even in the morning before we go to his speech appt. I need to pick up a present for his teacher tomorrow as Friday will be his last day of school before the holidays.

Have a great night.

Keep the Fuel Clean

2010-12-13T06:37:00.000-08:00

I have kind of forgotten this motto I had when I first started the quest to eating clean. I don't put crappy fuel in my vehicles so why should I with my body. I need to value my body so much more then I do my vehicle when it comes to fueling it up.

Since I started the points plus program with WW last tuesday I have been doing ok with eating. I have had a couple of relapses with the eating but I feel for the most part I am almost 100% back on track. That is my goal for this coming week, espeically since I will be starting my around the bay training. My workouts are so much better when I just eat enough food and healthy food.
I did run 8K on sat and 5K yesterday and did my bootcamp today. the runs were great since the fuel was spot on but this morning because I had a bit too much to eat after work last night and even had a piece of cake (which really was not that great) my workout was not as great as it could have been. My body is not going to workout great unless the fuel I provide it is clean and fresh.

Speaking about keeping the foods clean this time of year will be a bit of a challenge and I am challenging myself to keep in clean over the holidays. why do the holidays have to be any different. I need to focus on spending the time with family and friends and maybe not so much on eating!!! I will try and keep clean treats available to that I don't cave for the "crack food" that is addictive to me.

I am going to head to bed soon for a nap as I am working tonight. I should have no problem having a sleep since I woke up early to go to bootcamp.

Have a great monday everyone. 12 days til c-mas. i can't believe it!!

Change is good

2010-12-10T09:11:00.000-08:00

I about an hour I am going to get a much needed hair cut and possibly a new style along with some color. I am pretty sure that I will be going with a shorter style as I feel I need a change but not a drastic change. I have had this style before but I have much less weight on me so I am sure that it will look different :)

I did not make it to bootcamp this morning. I slept in :( The good thing though is I made myself go for an hour long walk which felt great. I do feel like my days need some form of activity in them or I feel gross. Tomorrow when I get up and before I head to work I will be running 8K. I am looking forward to doing a longer run (well it is longer for me since I haven't done anything over 6K since my half marathon in Nov).

This is day #3 of doing really well with my eating and I am feeling pretty great. I need to remember that. Something I did yesterday too was try on some of the bigger clothes that I haven't gotten rid of yet (the aren't my really big clothes as I did get rid of those, more like just the big clothes) and I could not believe how big they were on me. It made me realize how far I have come with taking care of my body and it motivated me to keep it up. For example we have a date night tonight which could have included dinner out and then go to the show but instead I am cooking supper with us. That is so much better since I can control what the foods are made with and I know that I will have the healthy options that I want to have :)

I still have not mailed the presents for down east yet so I need to get that done today. I must be going and get that all wrapped and take it either before or after my hair appt.

Have a great Friday everyone.

So tired...

2010-12-09T17:31:00.000-08:00

I don't know what is going on but I am so tired. I guess I should just go to bed but there are 2 shows that I want to watch tonight. I could PVR them but I would rather watch them. I still have some pts left for a snack. I am going to have apple and peanut butter :) Part of me wants the oatmeal snack that I normally have but I don't want to have that every night. It should be a special snack (that may sound weird to some people but when I am trying to eat clean then it tastes so yummy).

Supper was so good tonight. I went and bought some fresh Tilapia and used cajun spices and cooked it in tinfoil. I had a sweet potato and put it in a salad bowl that I had made with some goat cheese and sauteed veggies. I love this dish and I love Tilapia :)

Well I have changed my mind about my snack. I will have the oatmeal thing tonight and then I won't have it until the night that I WI. I did run 6K today so I have my AP's too.

Well must sign off. Looking forward to date night with my wonderful husband tomorrow night. We are going to see Jeff Dunham :)

a new blog name

2010-12-09T06:56:00.000-08:00

In January I will be starting a new blog and I have been trying to come up with some catchy names like a lot of the other blogs I read have. I know that I need to have one that pertains to me so I think that I have one figure out. I am going to try and make my blog much more interesting to read and as of last night I am an owner of something that will help make the pictures better. I won't tell you yet...my c-mas present needs to be a sercret to someone as it isn't to me ;)

I am happy with the foods that I ate last night. The only thing is that I had my treat of oatmeal after I got back from some shopping and I didn't really feel all that hungry. I guess it is better then having some junk food. I need to really think about why I am eating and is it for emotional reasons or am I truly hungry. I kind of have lost sight of that and I need to get it back.

This morning I had another bowl of yuminess. Greek yogurt with pumkin, spices a bit of honey and some go lean crunch. I think on saturday after I run 8K I will try the pumkin spice oatmeal that I keep reading about. i think that would be a great thing to have post a cool morning run :) I just wish I had been able to get the whole day off and not just 4 hrs. Oh well.

I was up nice and early this morning, bundled up and did a 6K run. I so did not want to get out of bed but I made myself and now am happy that I have my workout done and out of the way.

The morning is flying by and I haven't started any house work yet. Yesterday I did get the bathroom cleaned, some presents wrapped, and the laundry started. I keep putting of the room in the house that really needs to be done and it is what people see when they walk in the house. That needs to me my foucs today. I will have some time this morning (I will finish my coffee first though) and this afternoon. I wish we just had a big garbage bin and I could chuck everything that we don't use :)

I have no idea when we will get the c-mas decorating done. I guess it may be after my next set which will be next wed. I really hope that my wonderful husband will get out this weekend and buy the tree and put it up so it can settle and then we can decorate it when I am done working.

off to read some more blogs and finish my coffee.

The Blog World...

2010-12-08T12:56:00.000-08:00

It is so amazing how many people are out there that blog about healthy eating, the struggles they have with it, fitness, losing weight etc. I just noticed that there is something called FitBloggin' and OMG I would love to go to it. It would be so amazing but I don't think that financially I can justify going to it. It is in Baltimore and it is happening in May. I will have to keep my eyes open for other things similar to this. I just wish that there was something in Canada.

I have been doing ok today but feeling a bit frumpy. I can't let those feeling make justify me eating crap. Just a couple of days of eating properly will make me not feel that way. I know that if I eat healthy for the rest of the year I can enter 2011 at a weight that I would be relatively comfortable with. I really don't want to go into 2011 with more then 10 lbs to lose. That would be so frustrating since I was at a comfortable weight a couple of months ago.

Tomorrow I will venture out into the cold and get a 6K run in. I am going to need to invest in some good winter running clothes!!!

I am looking forward to supper tonight. I will be having a sweet potato which makes any supper taste extra amazing.

Day 2...hope it goes better

2010-12-08T04:40:00.000-08:00

I actually was doing so well yesterday and my meal at the keg was fine but then I caved for my addiction to sweets which just led to me having a few to many extras on my way home. I had a dessert at the keg which I know had a lot of sugar which is my addiction and i ate more sweets on my way home. I really must give it up completly. I need to treat it like an addiction and not have any (I know that I can't always live like that but for now I need to and I need to detox my body and if I do have something sweet I want it to be a clean sweet).

On to a new day and the rest of my tracking week will be spot on. It is just hard when you eat out. We will be eating out next thursday but just as long as I dont' have anything sweet I will be ok.

I had an awesome workout this morning at bootcamp. I loved that we did 2 rounds at stations. It really made the time go by fast and it was a tough workout. I am sure I will be feeling it tomorrow :)

Not quite sure what I will be doing today but I think that I need to just focus on housework. I am really slacking in this area and it is not pretty. I want to clean like I have very important people coming to visit on the weekend (which I don't but it will make me clean). I have a mountain of laundry that needs to be done too.

I need to get some groceries at some point in the day too. I will just go to the local grocery store in town since I don't really feel like going out, but one never knows...I may end up at walmart at some point today.

My wonderful husband needs to get the c-mas lights up. Maybe we will just put some lights on the deck instead of putting them up. I think that would make his job much easier. I may have to venture out and look for some nice greenery to put around the railing that we could add lights too.

Well I should get the kids up and make them some breakfast.

A brand new day :)

2010-12-07T04:42:00.000-08:00

That is how I am going to look at everyday. I will look back to see how things are going but really I need to start taking it one day at a time and realize that yes for one day I can eat healthy and say that every morning until my clean eating becomes 2nd nature again. I don't want to fall into the crap trap again ;)

This morning I was debating on going for the 5K run that I had planned or wait until my husband got home from work. I am happy to say that I got ready and headed out the door nice and early. It was a pretty good run and my first run in the snow this year. I was a little nervous as I really don't want to get an injury from falling. I have to remember that when I started running in January...that is winter and I did just fine :)

I will be posting my menus on my blog for those who are interested in what I am eating. One thing that I do like about this point system is that they gave me 29 pts. These pts will go a long way if I eat clean which is awesome. Some foods that I like have gone up in pts but fruits are now 0 pts which will really balance out the things that have gone up.

Breakfast: greek yogurt with a little bit of honey

raspberries

go lean crunch

I am going to have to try some of those foods on other blogs with the greek yogurt.

Snack: banana

Lunch: turkey burger (the WW thins are now 3pts instead of 1...I wonder if they are going to change all their packaging to show the changes in the pts??)

carrots

grapes

Snack: apple

tbsp peanut butter

Supper: out at the keg. I am going to have terryaki chicken with salad instead of potato's and will ask for the salad dsg on the side. I may have a glass of wine with supper too ;)

One thing I liked about the Keg's website is when looking up there nutritional information you had the option of adding sides and taking some things away. It made it easier to figure out the pts that I would be using tonight.

M has group here at the house today so I am hoping to get a bit of cleaning done and then tomorrow I will do more cleaning and maybe some organizing of the fridge and pantry. I need to make a grocery list too. I will try to get some wrapping done on these days off this week. I need to utilize all this time off that I have this week. I do not want to be stressed the week before c-mas trying to get things done.

I have a hair appt on Fri and I am not sure what I will be doing but I think that I am up for a change. I think that it will be a good thing to do to help get through these winter months. I am getting tired of always pulling my hair back. I know that with my hair being shorter I will have to spend a little more time on it but that is ok. I am getting it colored too and I think that I will go with a deep rich brown with some rich highlights. Nicole is always good about figuring out what I am talking about.

I just went to try on the pants I was planning on wearing tonight and they have a hole in them. That is frustrating. i only have worn them once. I can squeeze into a pr of pants that I have that are size 4 and I think that if I wear my long sweater with them they will be ok. If not I will have to pick up a pr before heading out for supper which I really don't want to do. It is only for a couple of hrs. I will wear the pr that I have here. All the more reason to get these 15 lbs off so that i can fit into the few pr of pants that I have here and then buy more :) I will be buying some pants for my date night on friday night though :) I am going to see Jeff Dunham with my wonderful husband. that will be a night filled with laughs.

Well I am going to read some blogs and finish my coffee. I will get housework done today :)

New Weight Watchers Program

2010-12-06T18:30:00.000-08:00

So today I decided to take the plunge and I went to WW. The reason I did this was a new program started today called points plus. I have been reading the material that I was given and it seems like it will be a great program to follow. I lowered my goal weight and starting tomorrow I am going to give the new program a run for its money. I am so excited to try something new and I am going to get these pesky pounds off that found their way back onto my body.

I am going to run 5K in the morning which will be a perfect way to start my "new beginning"

Tomorrow night some girls from work are getting together at the keg for supper. I am looking forward to that.

Well that will be it for tonight. It will be a snowy run tomorrow as we are getting some snow now and it is cold enough that I know it will stick around for a bit.

Heading back to work...

2010-12-05T11:45:00.000-08:00

For just one more night. I felt like my eyes were much better and called in this morning and said that I would be back. I hope that they don't go all bad again from the dryness of the hospital. Oh well it is my last night and then 5 days off. I will make sure that I have my glasses with me and I am putting in new contacts before I go to work. I have been putting drops in to help get rid of the infection if that is what is wrong with them. I need to get glasses that suit my face shape on my days off this week.

I did some baking today. I made this chocolate pumpkin loaf that I found the recipe for on another blog. I just used regular milk choc chips since I am taking it to work with me tonight. I of course had to sample a piece of it and I am impressed with it :) I hope that the girls like it. I am making the turkey burgers that I love and I pretty much eat everyday for lunch. I love them and I really hope that I don't get sick of them. I should make some of the black bean burgers that I have the recipe for as a back up so I am not eating the same thing everyday.

I was able to get another present bought for my little boy and saw that something I bought my stepson was on sale so I had the receipt and I got the difference refunded to my bank account. It was just over $36 which isn't too bad.

well that will be all for now. I am feeling tired but I need to wait for my turkey burgers to be done before I can have a nap.

a new week of tracking

2010-12-04T17:38:00.000-08:00

So this technically is a new week of tracking for me. I wrote down what I weighed today and I am really hoping that when this week is up I will reach the 130's again and never lose sight of that number again.

I have the munchies tonight as I always do after working nights. I still have pts for my oatmeal treat and will save it for a bit later.

Looking forward to my 8K run tomorrow morning.

A unexpected night off...

2010-12-04T14:29:00.001-08:00

and maybe even 2 nights. I was supposed to work tonight and tomorrow night but I believe I have somehow contracted pink eye :( My eyes are a mess and given where I work I don't believe I should be there. I will see how they look after using drops 3x throughout the day but I don't know if they will look good enough to go back. Time will tell. I am being very careful about not touching my eyes as I really don't want it going through this house!!!

I ate great yesterday and last night and when I went for my 6K run once I got up I felt great :) I really hope that I don't slide again from my healthy lifestyle as it makes everything feel so much better. My run was amazing. Tomorrow morning i think that I will attempt to do 8K. I haven't done a longer run since my 1/2 marathon Nov 7th. I will just have to make sure that I stretch and ice after my run. I want to keep my hips and knees feeling really strong.

I had a great bowl of oatmeal after my run. I really do love my oatmeal. I was going to try a pumpkin oatmeal recipe but I did not. I have tons of pumpking still so I am sure that it will happen. I am going to make a clean pumpkin bread recipe tomorrow with pumpkin I have left over from the granola bars that I made.

I got to use the new canon t2i last night at work and man I love that camera. I love the one that I am getting for c-mas but I really love this one. I have until Jan 2nd to take the other one back should we decide to go with the newer model and if we can find it at a good price ;)

Well I must finish making supper for my boys. Have a great sat night everyone.

Doing better...room for improvement

2010-12-03T05:04:00.000-08:00

I am slowly getting my focus back. I am happy to say that I haven't been eating crap but I still am eating more food then what my body really needs. Again it is the being tired that i making me eat and eating instead of doing other things. Those are things that I will be working on wen I am off for my 5 days. My house is such a disaster there is no reason why I should feel like I have nothing to do. Maybe I just feel overwhelmed and don't know where to start. How awesome would it be to have a magic wand :)

Yesterday I went for a 5K run before going to work and this morning I got up nice and early and went to bootcamp. I have done bootcamp 3x this week which has been the most I have done it in forever. I only have 2 more weeks of going that many times before my training starts. I know that when I am training I will have to work hard to get 2 days at bootcamp in. I may have to do some mini classes.

The chili I made the other day tasted so good. I love the cilantro and the little bit of cinnamon taste to it. What I think makes it even better is having it over a sweet potato :) YUMMY I had that for supper last night and it actually kept me pretty full.

I have quite a few things to do this morning once I drop my little man off at his play group. 1 thing is a Dr's appt. My hip is actually feeling fine right now so I kind of feel silly going but i just want to have something in place incase it starts hurting when I start doing longer distances with the training that is starting soon. I have to run to my sons school to drop something off and a couple of other things. Then I hope to get a nap in there and I need to make some granola bars but that will proably wait until after I get my little man this afternoon. Busy day and then work tonight and nights on sat and sun :( I am looking forward to my stretch off after my next set :)

I am hoping that on my 5 days off I will have my house cleaned, find my c-mas decorations and hopefully have them up and out, maybe get a tree and get some more shopping done. With my big stretch off I want to have all my wrapping done so I am not rushed the actual week of c-mas. It would be better to just relax that week :)

Have a great friday :)

A challenge to myself :)

2010-12-01T05:07:00.001-08:00

It is always good to challenge yourself and my challenge is to have a clean eating month (well for the majority of it anyways). I do have some challenges ahead, I have a night out with the girls at the Keg next week. I am pretty sure I know what I will be having and I will make sure to make smart choices. I have a family c-mas dinner coming up but I should be ok for that one. I will make myself some clean choices (like sweet potato and a clean version of a dessert for myself :) ) and then there is the 3 days of c-mas celebrations that will be happening at work. Again for this I will make clean choices so that I have options and won't feel left out. I am thinking that the 24th will be more snack like foods so I will make the clean version hummus and bring in some veggies. On the 25th I am not sure what I will be brining in and I don't know for sure if we will do anything on the 26th. Then the 31st. I am pretty sure that we are staying in to have just a family night so the choices will be much easier. It will be so nice not to have to prepare anything major for a change. we usually have a bunch of people over but this year we both want to stay home...which is totally fine with me.

This is day #3 of being BOT and it is going ok. I am feeling great but I can so tell that I need to start yoga or something as I feel stiff. My first reward to myself for having a great week will be a new running jacket. I think my next reward will be too buy some yoga sessions. I know that where I want to go has a unlimited 2 week deal for $20 which I think would be a great way to check it out :)

It is so dark and gloomy out today. I made it to the early am boocamp class and I must say it felt great to have my workout done so early. I am thinking that it has been a while since I have done that class and maybe that is part of the problem with staying focused.

Have a great day :)

November rain...

2010-11-30T05:57:00.000-08:00

this is what kept me from running this morning. If it was just misty out I would have gone but it was pouring out when I had gotten up and ready to go. I opened the door and it was coming down hard. I just took off my running gear and climbed right back into bed. Once my actually training starts for around the bay I will have to run in pretty much any weather since I have no idea what the weather will be like at the end of march when the race happens.

My little boy was supposed to have his group at the house all day today but this mornings session was cancelled. Oh well. Just some time for the 2 of us to spend together which does not happen to often. I will be getting him some pizza for lunch.

Tomorrow I need to get my east coast family c-mas shopping done and get things sent off so it will get there on time.

Yesterday was a perfectly on track day. I am going to take it one day at a time so here is another day and I hope that it will be an on track day too. It will be an early night for my little man and I will be heading to bed shortly after him.

What i have planned for this morning includes making meat balls for my boys and cooking up a big ol pot of chili for me so I will have some quick and easy meals to take to work. I had actual yams for the fist time last night and I dont' think that I like them a much as sweet potato's. I will eat the ones I have though so I don't let the food go to waste. I like the sweeter taste of the sweet potato over yams.

Well I am going to get caught up on my blog reading and then go and make those meat balls and the chili.

Have a great tuesday everyone. I will probably check in later to let y'all know how I made out with this 2nd day back on track. This is the day that I had my huge binge just a few days ago. It was on day #2. I need to take this seriously though since it is like an addiction to me and I need to stay on the healthy eating band wagon!!!!

December Goals...

2010-11-29T15:33:00.000-08:00

I know that this is a day early to be writtin this as tomorrow is the last day of November but it does not hurt to post this now.

Goals for December:

1. Start training for my 30 K race

2. Until training starts go to bootcamp 3x/week

3. Try Intro to Hot Yoga

4. Drink only 1 diet coke/day

5. Limit my visits to starbucks

6. Go for my monthly WI at WW'ers

7. Stay focused with my clean eating

8. Get plenty of sleep

9. Don't do any OT

10. Keep up with housework

11. Limit unnecessary spending

12. Try hard to get back to my goal weight by the end of the month

So far I have rocked today with my eating but already I feel tired. I will have my snack at 7:30 and I may just go to bed at 8. What is the point in trying to stay up when I am so tired????

I used my new rice maker to make quinoa tonight and it worked great :) My next attempt will be with steel cut oats. That will be so awesome for those times that I go for a run when waking up post nights. I will keep you posted on how that goes.

Good night.

self sabatoging and changing my goal

2010-11-29T04:16:00.000-08:00

I don't know if this was my problem or not but I was trying so hard to get to a certain weight when one weight I was at was perfectly fine. I am changing my goal weight to 135 lbs. I know I can do this and I will get back to it. I was thinking about taking a litte break from blogging but the more I though about it I wondered why I would do that.

Here we are a monday morning and I am saying something that I was hoping I would never have to say again...back on track today :(

I have been having major issues the last couple of months. The good thing is I totally know what I have to do and I am pretty sure that I know what I have done wrong. I started eating crap food again and it is just like a drug to me that I am very addicted too and have no control over. I leads to binges, mood swings etc so clearly I need to stay away from it. I felt it in my exercise today and since I start training in 3 weeks for my next race I need to step it up and get my clean eating grove back. It is the way to go. I am NOT going to gain any more weight and I will get back to a healthy weight for me.

I had 1/2 a ww thin with homemade natural peanut butter and some banana slices on it. I should have had a snack this morning but to be honest I am not that hungry so I am saving it for a snack later as I am sure my appetite will pick up today.

I will reward myself for each week that I do perfect with my eating with the time left in this year and then next year I will come up with some new challenges :)

Just going to check out some more blogs. Have a great day everyone and here is to being back on the clean eating bandwagon

Upward but a new start downward....

2010-11-27T14:43:00.001-08:00

A very old sounding record and I had told myself that I would not be saying this come the new year so really since this is my b'day and I had my big celebratory dinner yesterday I have used this date to really get my focus back. I saw some pics that my hubby took and it made me realize that I need to do this now before it is too late.

So far today is going well. I am tracking and eating well. I am feeling good about it and have 1 more snack that I can have that I will have around 8 and then I need to stop eating.

I took the day off from exercise and tomorrow I will be going for a nice run (probably a cold run). Not really sure how long of one I will be doing though.

I need to make up a grocery list and that is 1 of the things I will be doing tomorrow.

Well that didn't last long ;)

2010-11-25T07:57:00.000-08:00

So I ended up doing a run yesterday and I actully felt ok. My hip was bothering me a bit after but my knee wasn't. I honestly think that my muscles in my hip area are just tight and I need to do a lot of stretching, look into Yoga, not run every day, look into yoga, and maybe call my Dr and look into yoga ;)

I will call my Dr now and just get in to make sure it isn't anything too serious. I don't know if I will need physio or not but I will do a lot of things to make sure that I can keep running!!!!! There all done. I have an appt for Dec 3rd. I need to look into the foam rollers too.

I did the 1 hr bootcamp class this morning and it was a great workout. It has been a bit since I have been there (close to a week) so it felt very tough but great at the same time.

I have a lot of cleaning to do so that is all for now. I want to just read a few blogs then get to work before I need to get my little guy.

day 1

2010-11-23T14:00:00.000-08:00

of not running that is :( I am having a hard time with not doing it but I still feel a little achy in my hip so I am going to stick to my original plan. I won't run until fri or sun. If I feel 100% on fri I will just do a short, flat run. If I feel even a twinge I will wait.

I have great foods picked out for today. My timing for my meals is a little off since I had an education day today. I made a pork tenderloin roast today for the first time. It shredded amaziningly and for next time we will have pork on a bun. I put a little bit of bbq sauce on it but for next time I want to make sure I have a clean bbq recipe. I will have to do some reserach on that.

I went for a 5K walk and even though I didn't get to run it felt great to get out and do some activity.

well I am going to be getting ready for work soon. Have a great night everyone.

Recommiting :)

2010-11-22T15:40:00.000-08:00

So far so good today. I had a bowl of oatmeal for brunch and then for supper I had 1/2 a sweet potato with wendy's chili. I need to make some of my own chili as this is a very filling and very yummy meal which I could eat a lot I think.

I have of course been doing so much thinking about the pain I have in my knee and hip. I am going to rest it 3-5 days. I am going to call my Dr just to make sure it isn't anything major...possibly physio in my future and I have been looking and considering yoga. I have heard great thing about yoga and if it helps me stretch things out and run better and longer I am willing to pay for this.

I am getting pretty tired so I guess I should get things ready for my little man to go to his grandparents tonight.

Taking a few days off...

2010-11-22T10:45:00.000-08:00

From running that is. I am just having too many aches in my hip and now the inside of my other knee. As hard as it will be to do this I have to look at the big picture and I realize that not being able to run at all would be much harder then taking a week or so off. I am going to give myself at least 1 week off and will decide next tuesday if I will give a short run a try or not. I will still be working out though. I will do bootcamp, go to the gym or go for a walk. I think that I will hit up the gym tomorrow as this week will be difficult to get to bootcamp based on my schedule. I actually don't think that bootcamp will happen until saturday so I will alternate between the gym and walking until then.

Today I did run 3K but was struggling a bit with it and that is when I made this decision to have a break.

I am getting back on track with the eating today though. I need to really watch what I am eating if I am not going to be running.

I am just icing my knee right now and will check out a few blogs before hopping in the shower and then pickig up my baby boy from school.

Something else that I am going to do until I start training for my next race is not run everyday. I will run every other day.

Sweets...

2010-11-21T15:42:00.000-08:00

I have had enough sweets, and other crap to do me more then a lifetime. starting right now i am done with that and am getting back to my lifestyle of clean eating. I enjoy doing that and feel great when I do it. all that other stuff that tastes ok going in makes me feel so horrible after and I am DONE with that. I have probably put on 10 lbs in the last couple of months and am going to get it back off while getting back to the healthy eating that makes me feel GREAT.

I am going to bed now and hope for at least 3 hrs of sleep.

The scale is creaping...

2010-11-21T10:43:00.000-08:00

in the wrong direction and I totally know why and I am the only one that can get it to go in the right direction again. I am not going to go too crazy today at the shower and starting monday I will be right back on track with the clean eating. I want to get my focus back. A clean eating lifestyle is so amazing and it makes me feel so great so why I strayed from it I am not sure why. Sugar totally is like heroin. It is addictive and I need to stay away from it.

The one thing that has stayed constant is my exercise. I love getting my workouts in and when I got up at noon I did 5.05 Km's in 31 min.

Work was ok last night. I am back in tonight for just 8 hrs. After the shower I hope to come home and have a nap before I head in. I am sure that I will be able to get a good nap provided I go to bed by 7. I will have to get M's lunch and shool stuff ready though. I will need to be up by 1 tomorrow so I can exercise and then go pick up my little man from school.

Tues I have to do a 4 hr course for work at someones house and then work nights. I will be happy to be on a more regular schedule.

well I must be going now. Enjoy the rest of this wonderful day.

why am I having a hard time :(

2010-11-21T05:42:00.000-08:00

Today I am going to a baby shower. I will carefully. Monday will be the day that I get my focus back to eating clean. I am going to be eating out a few times during the remainder of 2010 but I will have my focus back and make smart choices on those days that I eat out.

I am the one that can control what goes into my mouth. I need to step up and acknowledge that control!!!!

A friday morning...

2010-11-19T03:20:00.000-08:00

It is only 6:20 and I have already ran 5K, showered, had some breakfast and in a few min will be heading out the door for a long 12 hrs at work.

My 5K run was awesome. I felt very strong when I did it. I didn't go very fast but I know that I was getting a good workout. My legs are still stiff from my bootcamp workout the other day, but the hip still feels good. I will be doing bootcamp tomorrow. I was thinking abou just going for a run and doing the cardio core but I think that I will do cardio core and the mini bootcamp class just like last sat. I must remember that I am not training yet and need to do more of the other acivities. I will go for a run on sunday when I get up and before going to the baby shower.

Have a great day everyone.

Staying Strong...

2010-11-18T18:17:00.000-08:00

Right now as I am typing this I am feeling that urge to have stuff to eat. I am not hungry, just a bit tired but want to stay up until my hubby gets home from dropping the kids off at his parents. I have had such a great day with eating so why would I sabatoge myself. I am going to be getting up early tomorrow and get a 5K run done. I am hoping that work isn't too crazy tomorrow.

I have 2 recipes from the cream cheese website that I will be making for the shower.

I need to get a gift for the shower too. I will probably do that sometime on saturday.

night everyone.

Hip Pain be gone :)

2010-11-18T13:45:00.000-08:00

Well so far since getting up from working last night I have no hip pain and I ran 3.4 Km's :)

I am trying not to get too excited about it but so far so good. I am sore though but I can thank J from bootcamp for that. My triceps, inner thighs, quads and my but are all sore from yesterday's workout. It is so awesome that after almost a year of attendng bootcamp she still can make me have sore muscles :)

Work last night was a weird and somewhat busy night but what else is new. I am back to work tomorrow and then sat night and then just 2 shifts for next week. All these switches that I have done will pay off next week :)

I have a baby shower to go to on sunday afternoon and then on tues I have to be recertified in NRP. Should be a fun outting with some girls from work. I need to make a sign for Dec 7th as we will be heading out with some girls from work for dinner. I think that giving a week and a bit to sign up should be plenty of time.

I had a aweomse bowl of oatmeal for brunch and supper will be my yumminess in a bowl with chicken being the meat of choice. I love this meal and I will be taking it with me for supper at work tomorrow night. It is so awesome to be able to just take leftovers for work and not really have to put much thought into what I will be having.

Well I must do some more prep work for supper. Have a great night everyone.

I need to come up with 1 or 2 ideas for foods to bring to the shower. There are so many recipes on the blogs I read that I may use some of them. We will see.

Hip Pain...

2010-11-17T11:05:00.000-08:00

why is it when one pain goes away another one enters the picture???? I was happy with not having any knee pain and then yesterday afternoon I started having pain in my hip? Not quite sure what that is about. It is still there. I have been icing it and taking some ibuprofen. I need the pain meds cause it is somewhat bothersome and I do have to work tonight. I did go to bootcamp after much thought and the pain is no worse from doing it. I will still do a run tomorrow too but maybe just 4 or 5K and will stop if my hip bothers me when I am doing it.

I bought a book today to track all my feelings, foods and weekly wi's. I really need to get my focus back and I think that is the way to do it. I will let you all know how it goes. I will keep posting things on here but some things I would like to keep private ;)

I had cereal, milk and 1/2 a banana for breakfast. Yogurt and 1/2 banana for lunch and have my foods picked out for the rest of my meals. I am working tonight so started eating a bit later today.

I had fun at the hockey game last night. I was sure the Leafs were going to lose but because of a lot of penalties that the other team received they were able to come back and win the game. CRAZY :)

Well that is all for now. Have a great afternoon and evening.

Moving on...

2010-11-16T10:44:00.000-08:00

Today is a new day and I am moving forward and really trying not to focus on the past few weeks. I am not blocking everything out, just what I have put into my body ;)

I did a 6K run this morning. It was the longest run I have done since my 1/2 marathon and it felt very good. My legs finally don't feel heavy. I am still taking it easy with the running though and won't do a long run until the 28th. I am making sure I have 2 full weeks off from a long distance run.

Since I was able to sleep in for a bit today, thanks to my hubby everything was delayed a bit. My run was later and that meant that breakfast was later. I had a very yummy bowl of oatmeal. It tasted really good. I need to get myself to goodness me and pick up some more peanut butter and I need some more steel cut oats.

I am having my usual lunch right now, yummy.

I have done a little bit of cleaning and will do a bit more tomorrow too. K and I, his dad and a friend of his are going to see the leafs play. Not quite sure what will be happening with supper.

well that is all for now. Have a great afternoon and evening everyone.

Why am I still up???

2010-11-13T07:33:00.000-08:00

I am asking myself this question but then I remember how when I exercise after working nights I have a bit of extra energy and that is what happened today. On my way home I figured that since I ran the last 2 days I would take today off and do another form of a workout. I though about going to the gym when I got up but then I was not wanting to have to drive all the way into the city after getting up. So I looked at my bootcamp schedule and headed there for 8:15 and did 2 half hour classes...cardio core and a mini. The cardio core one is so awesome. It is my first time going to this class and I am sure that tomorrow I will be feeling it in my abs but that is where I want to feel it. The mini class was a great workout too and then when I got home I had a bunch of energy but now I am slowly starting to crash. Not a long sleep for me...I have a lot of housework to do and I need to go to bed at a decent time tonight since I am working days tomorrow.

I was so hungry when I got home that I had my oatmeal now instead of when I get up. I am sure I will still be pretty full when I get up. If not I will have a little something as I need to save room for the yummy bbq steak we will be having for supper. I need to make sure that I save enough for the next 2 suppers at work. We have 4 pieces of steak and I am sure that I will easily be able to save enough since it is just the 3 of us for dinner tonight and I do watch my portion sizes when it comes to meat.

Well I must go and take my contacts out and get some sleep.

Stiff but no pain

2010-11-12T13:40:00.000-08:00

I have gone for short run the last 2 days and thankfully i had no pain. My legs still feel stiff and heavy but thankfully no pain in my knees. I am making sure that I don't do any really long runs for 2 weeks. I want to make sure my knee is great before attempting the long runs.

My food has been great too since the day after the race. I feel so great now that my eating is back under control. I am being careful with counting my pts since I am not doing any long runs/training.

Work was odd last night but what else is new. I am going to work again tonight. I will be glad when this month is over...all the crazy switches I have done. I will be tired by the end of it all.

I had an awesome bowl of oatmeal after my run and shower. I love oatmeal and since I don't eat it everyday now I find I love it even more. I know I keep saying this but I really need to start eating more varieties of it :) Maybe that is something that will be my new years resolution. I should look through my cookbooks and come up with a whole bunch of meals so that I can have a variety of foods in the new year.

Well I need to get my food ready for work tonight. Have a great night.

What have I done...

2010-11-11T07:58:00.001-08:00

I have gone crazy and am working the next 2 nights. Tonght is an OT shift and tomorrow night was a switch so I could have next tuesday off to go watch a Leaf game at the ACC.

I was going to get up this am and go for a run but I actually slept in bit and will run when my wonderful hubby gets home. I am going to test out my knee and pray for the best. I need to make sure that I only do 3K though. I don't want to push it to fast.

Check out his awesome contest

http://www.fannetasticfood.com/2010/11/11/win-a-quakers-amazing-morning-kit/#comment-28438

I am starting to really get in to these contests on other blogs. Why not right :) Maybe I will actually win something ;)

Not a whole lot going on today. Taking my little man to an appt later and then just going to chill until I go for my run and then get ready for work. I will do a bit of housework but really saturday after I get up and get some activity in I will do some major cleaning.

don't forget to check out the contest.

My knee is getting better :)

2010-11-10T06:39:00.001-08:00

I know this because I did a 45 min bootcamp class and it didn't bother me at all :) I love going to this bootcamp and am coming up on my 1 yr anniversary of joining. I started in Jan 2010. I love the nutrition tips that are offered and the motivation to get through the classes and to give it my all in a class.

I may try a 3K run in the morning. If I do I will let you know how it goes. I will ice, rest, elevate and compress my knee today a couple of times.

There is a great contest going on here http://www.theshubox.com/2010/11/may-i-have-your-attention-please.html#links I always struggle to find a great day planner so I entered this contest and hope to win :)

My food yesterday was amazing. It feels great to be back on track. I had oatmeal which tasted so good, a burger, pineapple and carrots for supper and 2 snacks. apple and pb and a kashi bar.

I am going to try so hard to keep this focus up for the eating as it makes me feel so much better when I do. I am going to try and avoid the scale until tuesday as that will give me a good week of getting my eating focus back to the clean approach.

Well I am going to read some more blogs. Have a great day everyone.

RICE...

2010-11-09T13:39:00.000-08:00

and not the type you eat. I have been resting my knee since the race and it is getting so much better. I actually probably could have ran today (just a short one) but I am not chancing it. I will try bootcamp tomorrow and if it is ok with all that jumping, squatting, lunging etc I will go for a short run thursday. If I feel a bit stiff then I will put it off for a couple of more days. I am finding it hard not to run but really I need to listen to my body. I have gone for walks the last 2 days which is great. Walking is great exercise too and I can't forget that. I have a friend who has been trying to get into running and just found out that she has a broken ankle (perhaps a stress fracture) and when I hear that I know that i need to listen to my body because my knee could be so much worse.

Yesterday I ate great but I was retaining so much water. Almost 9 lbs of water so needless to day I was a grump. I haven't been eating perfect either which goes to show me how much a healthy lifestyle affects my mood (as in a grump when I don't eat properly and I feel bad for my hubby as he probably got the brunt of that yesterday, I will have to try and make it up to him tonight ;)...I know TMI).

I have 6 WW journals all dated as that is how long I have until I start training for Around the Bay and I want to be at the weight of 130-135. My challenge for the new year is going to be keeping the year clean as possible. clean eating is the way to go in so many ways. I find that a big challenge for me will to be making desserts but having just 1 portion a day. There is no need of binging on those things as it makes me feel so awful when I do.

My schedule for the month of nov is all over the place since I did switches etc. The good thing about having radom shifts all over the place is that it will help me get back on tack with WW and counting my points :)

well I must get the dishes done from yesterday and start making som burgers for supper. The good thing about working last night is that I can have some very yummy higer pt meals since I won't have as many today. I had yummy 7 pt oatmeal for my breakfast/lunch and supper will be a hamburger...not a turkey burger ;) I will have some carrots with my burger and then think of something yummy for a evening snack.

Have a great night everyone. I will try to take some pics for my upcoming entries.

Race Recap

2010-11-08T07:33:00.000-08:00

sorry people but no pics for this race. I ended up going by myself and did not want to check in baggage or anything so my camera did not capture any moments from the race.

The race went ok. I did it in an awesome time 2:07:43 (chip time). I was so impressed with the time. The thing I am bummed about is that my knee started to hurt with 5K left to go. I did have a couple of stops. One was to use the BR and the other 2 stops I did were to try and stretch out my leg/knee to help me get through the rest of the race. I have done some research on the computer to figure out what I should do about resting after this race and starting to train for the next. I have decided that I won't do a run until sat or sun. I will only do 5K and will stop if my knee starts to feel sore. I will walk and do a bootcamp session until then though and will continue to ice my knee. I really hope that it feels good when I do my run. I will be majorly bummed (that won't even describe it) if it continues to hurt. I won't start my around the bay training until dec 20th so in that time I will only have a few longish runs.

Since I won't be training for 6 weeks I have decided to foucs on countin points (and doing it properly) for the next 6 weeks. I have been eating a lot more food the last few weeks as I have been running more but now that my running is tapering down a lot I need to taper down on the food!!!

I work tonigh and again thurs and fri and then back for my 3/4 of my set on sun. I picked up an OT on thurs and did a switch for fri (so I can have tues off to go to the hockey game with my hubby).

Not much else to report. Went for a nice walk today and now I am just going to relax and ice my knee a few times (and watch me some csi miami).

Waiting for tomorrow...

2010-11-06T11:16:00.000-07:00

I really don't want to wish today away but I just want to be on the start line for my 2nd 1/2 marathon. I went with a friend today to the expo and to pick up our race kits and then watched her take off and finish her first 5K :) Way to go Jocelyn !!!! It really made me motivated again. I have been lacking some motivation as you know and seeing all the runners around me made me realize how much work I have done to become a healthier person and I am wanting to stay that way.

I started off the day with a 3K run (to warm up my muscles for tomorrow). Once we got our race kits I had my breakfast. Fibre 1 cereal with yogurt and 1/2 a banana. Once J was done her race I headed to the car and had 2 clementines. for lunch I had a turkey burger, carrots and grapes. Yummy.

Well I am going to make some chocolate chip banana muffins for my boys. Be back later.

So tired...

2010-11-04T17:09:00.000-07:00

I don't know how much longer I am going to be able to stay up. I guess I will stay up long enough to make a grocery list or at least start.

Had great food today and my dessert that I had was amazing. Banana soft serve with a few carob chips and a bit of natural peanut butter and a homemade granola bar :) Very yummy!!

I will be so happy when tomorrow is done. I am not looking forward to working a friday. It usually gets crazy. Oh well at least I am only working 2 shifts in this set.

I am going to go to bed and take my list with me. I don't think that I will be up for when my hubby gets home :(

Night everyone

Thought I was doing something crazy...

2010-11-04T12:28:00.000-07:00

Last night I went in for an OT shift. I am actually glad I did it. I don't have many shifts on the pay period that just ended so this kind of will help and to top it all off it was a great night :) I did have problems falling asleep this morning but I managed a couple of hrs which is all I wanted since I have to work days tomorrow.

Once I got up, since my wonderful husband stayed home until early afternoon with the little one I went for my last semi longer run before the race on sunday. I did 8K. I actually was watching my pace in 2K increments.

Lap 1: 13:24 min

Lap 2: 12:46 min

Lap 3: 12:52 min

Lap 4: 10:56...I really pounded it out (for me) the last 2KM's :)

I am hoping that the weather will be ok on sunday. I am a little disappointed that not many pics will be taken since the boys have hockey on that day and I am not lugging around a camera with me. I do have a little camera but my water belt would not hold the camera and I am not wearing my running jacket and I wouldn't want to have a camera in the pocket hitting my legs as I am running. That would not be fun. I may check out what they have at the running room after work tomorrow and then when I go to the expo and the mall on saturday I will check out what they have. I will hopefully be able to snap some pics at the expo on saturday when I go to pick up my race kit and see if there are any good vendors to check out. Listening to myself as I think these thoughts is very surreal for me. I never would have thought that I would be one to run let alone run a 1/2 marathon (and this is even my 2nd one).

I kind of snuck a peak at the scale today and I must say I was so happy with the number I saw. The scale is going down thankfully after all the damage I did with the junk food consumed. I also found that my fun felt so much better too which goes to show you how bad crap food is for your body. I have to remember it is not only the food that went in to my body but the fact that I binged. Binging has to be so hard on the body and I really need to stop that. why do that to myself. If I find that I am craving something I should have a small bit of eat and enjoy it, not eat it to the point of feeling sick to my stomach, and in the last incident actually vomitting because I ate so much!!!

Well I guess that will be all. Have a great evening everyone.

Wanting a nap...

2010-11-03T10:47:00.000-07:00

but i can't. I need to pick up my little man soon. Of course because I am tired right now I just want to munch. I am not hungry so I won't munch. I will surf the computer and then maybe head to get him earlier and just relax in the car. I have been thinking about doing some baking but I am going to hold off on that. I will bake some granola bars tomorrow as I really don't want to buy any and I have all the ingredients to make some. I know that I would binge on some homemade goodies and I really want to avoid that for the next few weeks. I want to make sure that I am at a great place with clean eating and portion control.

Just thought I would share that with you guys.

Starting to get nervous...

2010-11-03T06:58:00.000-07:00

but still excited for my 1/2 marathon on sunday. I think that I am nervous because of how tight my calves were yesterday on my run and today my left food hurts a bit. I am sure that I will be fine but any little twinge out of the ordinary scares me a bit. Things could be a lot worse though, as i have read in other blogs!!

It feel like winter today and I know that it will just get worse as this season goes on. I need to start dressing in appropriate fall/winter clothes (which means I will have to buy some, which I plan on doing soon). Since it is so cold out I opted for a nice bowl of hot oatmeal this morning. I should have taken a picture but I didn't. The next time I have oatmeal I will take a picture. I had 1/4 c steel cut oats, 1 c H2O, 1/2 banana, 1/2 tsp cocoa powder and when it was in the bowl I added some natural crunchy peanut butter. I will have to talk about the natural peanut butter I am using in a later blog as I am so in love with this one that I feel it is very blog worthy.

I did my nursing registration renewal on-line today...it feels great to have that out of the way. Now just need to get on the c-mas shopping. I really should buy for the people down east and get theirs in the mail before the end of the month. I want to make sure that they get the presents in plenty of time.

Well I must hop in the shower. I have a few things lined up for today and then need to pick up my little man from school.

Have a great day everyone.

A fantastic day :)

2010-11-02T17:28:00.001-07:00

I can't believe how great I feel :) My FIL came over this afternoon so that I could do my 10K run which was so awesome of him. My calves were pretty tight though and I could totally tell that my nutrition has not been that great lately. Today i vowed when I woke up to change that and I really vowed that after my run. I did it in 1 hr and 4 min which is my best 10K run (on my own, I actually did the 10K race in a much better time).

I must say that all my food was clean today and my supper was so amazing and healthy tasting. I loved it.

tilapia with cajun spices, quinoa, veggies, and a sweet potato

My evening snack was a ww flat with 1 Tbsp of natural crunchy peanut butter and apple slices, again a very yummy snack. When I actually pay attention to my hunger cues I am not hungry at all. I am done eating for the night and feel like I can keep this up. I will keep this up. My mood has been so awesome today and it goes to show me what I really do know...crap food makes me a crabby person.

I will be getting up early in the morning to head to bootcamp so I will be heading to bed soon. I did weigh myself this morning so I willt ry my best not to weigh myself until next tuesday.

Night everyone.

A new day and feeling very positive :)

2010-11-02T07:06:00.000-07:00

wow the last month was crazy for me. It felt like food was taking over my life and it wasn't the good food. I have been saying this how I felt like I have an addiction to crap food and I really do believe it. I binge on it just like a druggie or alocholic would do with their addictions. I do believe that it is hard on my body when I go so long being "clean" and then start putting the crap back in to my body. I know that it is not nearly as serious as a drug, alcohol, gambling etc addiction but if feels like it to me and I am going to take back control of my body!!!!!!

I am going to give up sugary foods for life. I mean the crap sugary foods. I know that I can make myself clean sweets but I need to use portion control when it comes to them. It is the crappy sweets that make me binge so I need to avoid them.

I started off with the same breakfast that I had yesterday. It was a later breakfast as I am going to try and have what I normally would have for a morning snack as my afternoon snack since my wonderful husband will be coming home at supper and I am going to do my 10K run. I had really hoped to do it this am but I had such difficulty falling asleep last night and probably only had a few hrs and that would not be good to run 10K on such little sleep. I am not even going to 2nd guess running before supper as I need to finish up my training for my 1/2 on sunday. I really need to stay strong and keep the foods clean as I need to feel 100% for my run.

Once my 1/2 marathon is done I am going to use the month before the next training starts to get the weight off that I want to get off to be at my goal. It is about 4-6 weeks and a very reasonable time frame. I will be diligent with my point counting and keeping those foods as clean as possible. I will not fall back into the old habits. I WILL NOT do that. I have worked so hard to get this lean and strong body and I want to make it even better and I know I can :)

I am sounding so obsessed with this and I know that it is not healthy to think this way but I am just trying to make my body the best body I can have and what is wrong with that!! :)

I am going to finish reading other blogs and get some house work done as per usual their is tons to be done.

Picking up the pieces

2010-11-01T21:56:00.000-07:00

Wow am I ever having a hard time getting my act back together. Just like someone with an addiction. My addiction was to crap food (sugar) and now I have fallen off the wagon and really need to get back on and fast. Damage is being done and I need to get it together fast for various reason. One that is important to me is the 1/2 marathon coming up on sunday. I can't race feeling like a bag of poop so I need to eat clean. It puts me in a much better place. I need to remember this!!!!

WHY!!!!

2010-11-01T19:26:00.000-07:00

I need to get my eats clean or my 1/2 marathon will suck!!!! I just od'ed on halloween candy again tonight :( I had great food intake today until this evening. I should have gone right to bed instead of eating. I will have to make sure that I smarten up starting right now!!!!!!

I will have a better day tomorrow. Not sure if I will wake up early in the morning or if I will wait until just before supper. I guess it will depend on when K is getting home tomorrow.

A fresh start :)

2010-11-01T06:04:00.001-07:00

There are many reasons for getting back on track after a few days of not putting healthy foods into my body but the fact it is a new month really helps with the motivation (as does the disgusting feeling I have). I wrote a lot about what has been going on with my eats yesterday so I will try not to dwell on it. I can't change the past, just what happens today and in the future :)

I started off the day and month on a positive note by heading to bootcamp first thing this morning. It was a great workout. I am looking forward to running 10K tomorrow morning, bright and early. I have realized that when I am not sleeping after a night shift that my workouts need to happen in the early morning.

fibre 1 cereal with milk and banana

After getting my dishes done from last night (should have done them before going to bed but spend quality time with the husband) I had the above for breakfast. It actually tasted so good since I was hungry and i haven't had this in over a week.

Today I am going to go visit a friend/co worker that had her 3rd baby a little over a week ago. I made lasagna and apple crisp/pudding. I just hope they taste ok. I used tin pans so she wouldn't have to worry about getting dishes back to me and it made them not look as nice as a glass dish would have. I am sure they taste the same though. I need to make a stop at carters/osh kosh to try and find a couple of outfits for this sweet baby girl :) I think that I will get 2 gift cards for her other 2 children too so they won't feel left out. I am really looking forward to the visit. I don't do a lot with people from work outside of work and am trying to do more things (eg. concerts, and of course I did go to Vegas with one which was awesome by the way).

The kids don't have school today so my youngest is going to his grandparents while I go for a visit. Having a PA day the day after halloween was a very smart decision. I would not want to teach a bunch of kids that probably would be coming down from a sugar high and not having much sleep ;)

Well I need to sign off for now. Have a great day. The sun is shinning here in southern ontario whcih is awesome :)

Reflections...

2010-10-31T16:21:00.000-07:00

As I sit here at my computer I can't beleive that this is the last evening of October. I must say that I have had a pretty good month but it has made me realize a few things and the most important one is that I still have issues with eating even though I have been rocking the clean eating lifestyle and really enjoy it. I keep trying to better the clean eating by trying new recipes etc and I will continue to do that. My issue is around binging. Sometimes it is on clean foods but the last couple of weeks I have been having issues with crap food. Why do I put crap into my body...I really don't know that answer to that. I will try to avoid this stuff as it does nasty things to me in all aspects of my life. The brief second that the food tastes good is not worth it at all for the way I feel after. So I will stop. I want to enjoy clean, healthy foods as I know that is what my body thrives on now. It keeps me strong physically, mentally and emotionally. That is the person I want to be. I will try not to focus so much on the numbers on the scale (even though I think that 130 would be a happy weight for me I will say between 130-135 lbs is my goal as I know that weight fluctuates a lot). I can fit into a size 4 which is awesome and if I focus more on the numbers then eating great and loving the food I eat and loving the exercise I think the weight will come off and I will feel so much happier about things. I think that I stress to much about the numbers. I will try to weigh myself just once/week but that will take a lot of work. I will WI tuesday after my 10K run.

Enough about that. Other things that I need to work on are keeping my house clean and organized as I know that makes me so much happier too, spending less time on the computer ;)

keeping up with my laundry etc.

I will try more recipes from my clean eating recipe book and making lots of it and freezing it for my meals at work. I will make sure to have lots of healthy snacks in my lunch bag at work and make sure that they are filling ones as that is an issue with what happened last night to set off the eating crap.

I will rock my 1/2 marathon next week (even though I did not do my run today as I was not feeling it and took a rest day, which is not a bad thing). I will do more bootcamps until my training starts for around the bay. I will do at least 1 long distance run a week until the training starts to keep up the stamina.

The big thing I want to stress in my life is keep the food clean and the workouts dirty I just love that saying and I need to stay it when I get up in the morning and before i go to bed at night. It is so true and what I want my lifestyle to be like (and other things too of course).

Well that will be all for tonight. Having fun handing out candy to kids. I love seeing all the costumes...

post nights...

2010-10-31T05:44:00.000-07:00

I just ate my weight in food I think, oh well I felt very hungry. I should be doing an 18K run today but am to tired to do it. Need to eat clean all week and get my focus back 100%.

Night everyone.

A reality check...

2010-10-30T13:03:00.000-07:00

So yesterday I bucked up and went for my monthly WI. I was planning on skipping but I need to be accountable for the few binges that I had this month and sure enough I was up...3.6 lbs I know what I did wrong and I know what I need to do to get that weight off. I am hoping that what happened to me the last time I had a binge made me smarter and realize how horrible I am to my body when I do have too much food. Being back to work is helping me get back on track and hopefully the beginnings of reaching my goal weight by my birthday.

I had a great, but windy 6K run today. I think this was one of the better times that I have done a 6K in :) tomorrow is my last long run before my next 1/2 marathon. I am a little nervous about running 18K post nights, but really if I sleep good once I get home and get up around 2 I should be ok to do it. I will just listen to my body and if I feel really tired then I will just head home. I am going to just stick around home and do a few loops which will make me feel a bit more comfortable then driving somewhere to do my long run. I am excited and nervous at the same time for the race next sunday. I am actually looking forward to having a month off from training. I will continue to do runs, but will try to get to bootcamp 3x/week and do runs 4x/week which is a lot of exercise but some of the bootcamps will be just minis depending on what my work schedule is like and my runs will vary in distance. I am not really sure what people do inbetween training for races but I will do what I feel comfortable with. I know that I should continue to have 1 long run out of the 4 just to keep up with distance running.

I have a lot to do over the next 5 days that I have off and I really hope that I am able to stick it out and get it done. I had better make a to do list.

Last night at work. Hope everyone has a safe and fun halloween...

Lunch

2010-10-28T12:58:00.001-07:00

I can't wait to get my new camera to take awesome food pictures, but for now these will have to do ;)

ww flat with spinach, chicken and mustard, 1/2 banana and 1 cookie

not a bad lunch. It may not look like much but it was yummy and very filling. I forget the name of the cookie...banana oatmeal choc chip or something similar. I can't even remember where I got the recipe from. I need to get better about writing the blog or website down where I get some of my recipes.

I made 26 turkey burgers. I am hoping that they will last me a couple of months. They look very yummy and can't wait to have one. Not really sure when that will happen.

I will take a picture of all the foods that I am taking for my supper and snacks for tonight. I do find that I need to eat every couple of hours while working a 12 hr shift, or I get very hungry. I have had over a week off so it will be kind of weird to be back to work...but nice at the same time.

Tomorrow I just will be doing a 3K run. That is the distance of the run that I missed on tuesday when I had my rest day. I don't know yet if I will make it a fast 3K or an easy 3K. I will let you know tomorrow once it is done.

Have a great night everyone. Hopefully it won't be too crazy at work tonight.

Challenging myself...

2010-10-28T08:47:00.000-07:00

As I said yesterday I am trying to get back on track and get my focus back to help shed these last few pounds that have been sticking around for the last couple of months. I know that I should not focus so much on the scale and numbers but it is who I am and I dont' think that it will change. Focusing on the numbers keeps me in check of what I am eating and that is a good thing in a way.

So my challenge is to reach my goal by my birthday which is Nov 27th.

My exercise is going well it is the eating that has gotten a bit out of control. I still eat mostly clean foods but my portions have been a bit bigger then I know they should be. I will take the time to measure things out. It really does not take that much time so why not do it. i will plan my meals at the beginning of the day and do my best to stick to that menu. I will try and take picutres of my meals and post them. I know that I will do better at that when I get my new camera for c-mas :)

So today I was trying to decide what I would do for my run. do i head to the city and do it on the treadmill or run outside in the wind. The outside won. I am glad I did do it outside as it was not as windy as it had been earlier in the day and because I have to races coming up I need to prepare for the different types of weather that will be possible. one of the races is next weekend and the other is at the end of march. both of these races can have very different types of weather.

I finally found out what line I will be in come the new year with my new position as a regular full timer. I am so excited about who my full time partners will be, as well as my 1/2 partners. I couldn't ask for a better team to work with and will be devestated if it changes. I planned out most of my vacation for next year and my pickups and the stat holidays that I need to plan out in my schedule. I just hope that I did it right.

I am working the next 3 nights so I need to sit down and figure out what I will have for my foods while at work. Today is always the hardest since I need to eat all day but save some points for during the night. I will try and have lower pt snacks which should help and will try to have a later lunch.

Well I must head off and make a double batch of turkey burgers. I always love to have these on hand. they are yummy and low in pts.

A better day...but not perfect

2010-10-27T19:07:00.000-07:00

I did so much better with my eating today but the evening I had the munchies and had a few extra things to eat that I probably did not need. Thankfully I am working the next 3 nights which should help with getting back on track. I am not doing my monthly WI this month but will do it after my 1st night that week of my birthday (my birthday will be 2 days after that WI). I will be at my "happy" weight by then. I am making that a promise to myself.

night everyone.

Did not run...

2010-10-27T08:14:00.001-07:00

I won't be getting into all the details but I did not run last night and I am home from work today sick :( It has not a thing to do with alcohol either as drinking does not really interest me anymore. Having a great glass of wine when out for supper yes, but not the amount of drinking that i used to do ;)

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A month from today I will be turning 36. I want to enter my 37th year being at my goal weight that I have set for myself. I have come so far in the last year and I want to enter my next year being totally comfortable with myself physically, mentally and spiritually (although the spiritual part is always evolving as it should be).

I have 8.8 lbs to get off in a month and I know that I can do this. I need to be more in tune with portions that I eat as that has gotten a little bit off track. I need to just make healthy clean choices and if having something I normally wouldn't it better be excellent!!!

I will continue to exercise like I have been as I am pretty happy with where I am at with this. I know that after my 1/2 marathon on Nov 7th I won't start training for around the bay until Dec 20th. I will keep running but may get to bootcamp 3 days a week faithfully while I am not training. I will make sure to have 1 long run a week, preferably on a weekend.

I will take more pictures of my meals to show people that read this blog and I may let more people read my blog to see if i can help anyone that is struggeling with the journey to become healthier.

Well I am going to try and drink my coffee and read some blogs.

did not run this morning...will I run this evening

2010-10-26T11:54:00.000-07:00

I just felt like sleeping in this morning and so I did. I am wishing now that I had gotten up as planned and gone for my run but I will give it a try tonight. I just hope that K will be home early enough before supper so that I can get a good run in before he has to leave for hockey. He is reffing 3 games tonight. I guess it all depends on when he gets home how long of a run I do. If he is home before 5:30 I will be able to do the 8k. If it is later then that I will just have to settle for 5 or 6K. I really want to do the 8k. I guess I could wait until I take M to his grandparents for the night before I run. Only time will tell which distance I will do :)

I made these pumking chocolate snack bars yesterday and they are yummy. I just had one with some yogurt for my afternoon snack. I won't have anything else to eat so I won't have to run on a really full stomach.

Supper tonight will be tilapia, sweet potato and salad. I had the same thing yesterday and it was so yummy. Thankfully I have enough leftovers in my fridge and freezer that I don't really have to do much prep work for the next 2 days worth of meals at work...gotta love leftovers!

That is all for now. I sure hope this headache goes away...not sure if it is weather related or the 1 glass of wine I had last night. I sure hope that 1 glass would not give me a hangover feeling.

Hunger in the afternoon...

2010-10-25T13:01:00.000-07:00

So here I am a few hours before supper and I am feeling like I have the munchies. I would say that it is not really hunger but just feeling of being tired. I will not give in. I have had 2 snacks this afternoon and it is plenty of food for me and I won't have any more until supper. I have worked to hard to fall back to the mindless eating. I must say that my choices are clean choices though but I still need to be careful of the amount of food that I eat. I really wish that I could get completly over this feeling and find other things to keep my mind off of food. I have so many things to do around the house that it reallyn should not be a problem. I would have such a clean house if I put the energy that I spend thinking about food on housekeeping. I noursih my body with enough food that I may start putting that mindset to my housework :)

I will start right now.

Getting back on track...

2010-10-25T04:52:00.000-07:00

This doesn't even really have a lot to do with eating, just a little. We have had company at our house since tuesday and I may have eaten a bit more then I normally do. Mostly clean foods but some that weren't the best choices. I am overall pleased with the chocies I made except for the one binge that I had that made me feel quite sick. I have had amazing suppers the last couple of nights and should have been taking pictures of them. I am pretty sure that everyone enjoyed the foods that I prepared for the meals, I know that I sure did. I think the baked sweet potato's were a hit for those that ate them.

This week I am going to really focus on staying within the points that I am allowed to have as I have to WI on friday. I am probably going to have a gain but the main thing is that I eat healthy and if the scale does not reflect that this month, it just may next month. I am still trying to get to 130 lbs and if i get the big vacation payout that I am hoping too I will treat myself to a new wardrobe when I reach that goal. I did buy a pr of pants from old navy yesterday and they were size 4 and fit perfect. I honestly can't believe I am fitting in to size 4. CRAZY.

I will be running 6K tomorrow morning and I am really hoping my knee is ok. I will be so upset if it starts hurting when I am running. I will start off quite slow and do some stetching prior to going. I may even ice it when i get home from taking the kids to school and the company is gone.

That is all for now. I will try to get some pics of my foods today and I may do a little bit of baking. I would like to make some of this pumpkin butter and I have a type of snack bar that I would like to make too.

18K...

2010-10-24T06:56:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning and headed out for my long run of 18K. My garmin was not charged so I placed it on the charger and headed out thinking in my head what routes that I know the distance on and figured what I could do to make sure I got my full run in. I knew what I had to do for 8K so I did that first, made a pit stop back at the house for a BR break and my garmin was charged enough to grab it and use for the last 10K. My knee started to bug me with abut 2.5 Km's left to go in my run so I stretched it out as needed and continued on. When I finished my run I had a good stretch and then iced my knee for 15-20 min. I do not want to have any issues with my knee before my 1/2 marathon. I was actually surprised it bothered me as it hasn't done that in a very long time.

I was planning on weighing myself after my run but due to all the company we have the bathroon was being used and I could no longer wait to eat!!!! I did weigh myself yesterday so that will be the weight I go by. I am still trying to reach 130 lbs but maybe the stress of trying to reach it is keeping me from being sucessful. My goodness I can fit in a size 4. What else to I want.

I had my kasha breakfast pudding with a yogurt, very yummy and fast. Well I should try and get a shower in.

17 more days...

2010-10-23T10:22:00.000-07:00

and then I will be running my 2nd 1/2 marathon. I have 2 more long runs in my training, one being tomorrow. I hope the weather will cooperate for me. I went out and did 6 K this morning and felt very strong running it.

The last few days I have been feeling very snacky. I have been giving into those snacky feelings which really when I sit down and think about what I have had to eat I know that it has been way to much food. I am happy though that last night when those munchies hit me I had all clean snacks. I need to space my foods out better then I have been and try not to eat so much in the evening. I am going to try my best to eat clean up until my 1/2 marathon (and of course continue after) as I don't feel as strong and healthy if I have to much food.

This seems to be the main focus of my blog this week :( I think that when I am so tired I just eat so I need to go to bed if I am tried. It is usually in the evenings that I am snacking and being tired really seems to be the trigger so if I don't need to stay up, then don't. It really is that simple.

We have a house full of guests this weekend. I love having company and wish we would have company come and stay with us more!!!

have a great weekend everyone and I am going to try and post a recap of my long run tomorrow by uploading my garmin. We will see how that goes.

Having a better day...

2010-10-21T13:14:00.000-07:00

I did some shopping today which made me feel pretty good about myself. I have never in my life had clothes that were these sizes. I have worked very hard and it was so much fun and rewarding to try these on.

this is the top I bought, size xs

the pants, size 4 and so comfy

I loved them and they way they looked on so I bought them. I will make sure to post a picture on sunday when I am wearing them.

My food intake has been excellent today. We are all going to the outback for supper tonight and I am going to take the initiative and order very healthy foods from there menu. I did see sweet potato on there and I hope that it isn't just sweet potato fries. I guess I will find out. I will be getting tilapia and a salad I think. I want a chopped salad and hopefully they can give me the chopped blue cheese salad without the dressing.

The weather has been crazy today. We saw hail, rain, sun and very cold out. I am pretty sure we will be seeing snow very soon. Oh well.

It feels great to be in control of what I put in my body and I honestly lost control last night. I won't do that again. Or I will try not to anyways.

I am sure I will be taking some pictures of my supper and will post them either later tonight or tomorrow.

The final straw...

2010-10-21T08:22:00.000-07:00

I have been doing pretty good with my eating since Oct 8th but that all changed last night. I must say that the foods I ate were not bad choices the bad choice I made was the quantity of food. I ate so much that when I went to bed I had to sit up for a bit because I felt like my stomach was pushing against my lungs :( How could I have allowed that to happen.

I have been doing a lot of thinking on that issue today and have come up with a few reasons:

1. I did feel hungry when I ate the 1st little bit. I should have had some water and my apple and peanut butter and walked away from the table to do something else and see if I was still hungry.

2. I have been getting some comments on almost being to thin and these people do not realize how hard I work to get the body that I have now and to eat clean and healthy.

3. I was over tired which I must say seems like a trigger for me lately.

4. Just feeling overwhelmed with the fast paced life we live in.

So that being said I am refocusing again. I need to stop focusing so much on the number and find a truly good comfort level with my food consumption. I am proud of myself for being able to pick right up today and get my focus back. I had an awesome 8K run this morning and a great breakfast. I haven't needed a snack today as I am still a bit full from last night and my breakfast. I will eat lunch at 1 after I have my shower and M starts his group again and then mom and I will head out to do some shopping as long as dad is ok to stay at home while group is going on. I will go to rickis and buy the size 4 pants and the xs top that I tried on last week. I will use this as my target outfit and will wear it to church on sunday as the damage from the lg quantity of food I ate should be undone.

I am going to do a smaller run on saturday and then my long run will be on sunday which means that i need to get up and start my run as soon as it is light out.

I don't really have an pics yet from today, sorry.

A cooler filled with goodies

2010-10-18T19:12:00.001-07:00

What a busy day at work today, but thankfully we all made it through in 1 piece. Tomorrow will be here before I know it but that means it will be done and I will come home and see my parents. I am doing a little bit of cleaning and getting stew ready so they will have something for supper.

Every day/night that I go to work I pack up a cooler with all the foods that I need for the day/night. Here is what I took with me today. I didn't get a picture of my breakfast but maybe I will be able to do that tomorrow.

I love not having to buy food in the cafeteria or the cafe. I love having all healthy choices and what I consider to be yummy choices.

Well that is really all I have to say. My brain is feeling a bit fried and I still have a few things to do before heading to bed.

Back from PHAT camp

2010-10-17T18:26:00.000-07:00

So this weekend I was in Toronto with some of the girls from bootcamp at PHAT camp. If you want to check out what PHAT camp is go to: http://getphatwithjen.com/

I had such an amazing experience. We had some great workouts and some talks too. I loved getting my butt kicked and am scared to know how I will feel tomorrow. I am going to try and run 6K to keep my leg muscles from seizing up. I will let you all know how that goes. The best part of the weekend for me was meeting Tosca Reno. I love her books and the concept of eating clean. She makes it sound so simple and as a friend of mine says "it just makes sense". I would love to hear her do a conference on eating clean. I guess I will have to check out her website and see if she does that kind of stuff.

I had a great time with the girls too. It was like a girls weekend away. It was great to know these girls better.

I have my meals planned for tomorrow. I am pretty excited about only having to do my 2 days and then off for a week. My parents are coming for almost a week. I am really going to try and help my mom understand the concept of clean eating and help her realize how important it is that she lose weight and become healthy.

I will take some pics tomorrow morning when I pack up my food for work.

Night everyone.

great run and great supper

2010-10-14T18:42:00.001-07:00

I ended up calling a sitter to come after my sons group and went out for my 8K run. I was happy with how I felt with the run.

Supper was great but I didn't get a picture of it as my batteries were being charged. It was some bbq chicken, stir fry veggies and 1/2 c penne and I used salsa as a sauce for it all. Very yummy. I tend to eat this type of thing fairly often so I will most definetley get a picture of it as some point.

I went to the mall today but was a bit dissapointed. I coudn't really find anything. I did get 2 pr of comfy pants from old navy but I need some dressy/casual pants and couldn't really find any that I like. I need more of a selection. Bigger mall or shopping in Buffalo, NY will be required.

Tomorrow I leave for PHAT camp. I will have pics from the weekend. Very excited for it and I hope to learn alot.

Snack, baking and some Lunch

2010-10-14T09:35:00.001-07:00

I have been doing some cleaning and organiazing and about mid morning I felt the need for a snack.

enter a yummy pear and yogurt

I had some bananas that I needed to use up as I am going away for the weekend and I don't believe that they would get eaten up. I used about 5 of them to freeze for banana soft serve when a craving hits and 2 to make some cookies.
I got the recipe for these cookies from this website: eatcleandiet.com

The makings of banana oatmeal chocolate chip cookies

recipe calls for choc. chips I used baking chocolate (I will use choc chips or carob chips next time)

all the wet ingredients

dry ingredients

all the ingredients mixed together

cookies getting ready to go in the oven

mmm the finished product

Here is the link for the recipe : http://www.eatcleandiet.com/the_kitchen_table/recipe/recipe.aspx?id=656

around 12:30 I felt the need to refuel my body with some lunch

turkey burger on a ww thin with salsa, carrots with salsa and some very yummy grapes

The recipe for these yummy turkey burgers can be found here:

http://greenlitebites.com/2008/02/13/southwestern-turkey-burgers/

I am still procrastinating on cleaning my house. It would be so awesome to have a magic wand to do all the cleaning for you but since there is no such thing I should say good bye for now and will check in later.

Rainy thursday morning

2010-10-14T04:14:00.000-07:00

I had all good intentions of getting up early this morning and doing my 8K run but I could hear that it was raining out. Running in the dark is one thing but add rain to the mix I took my clothes and went back to bed. I wasn't able to sleep so I talked to my husband for a bit then got up went and got coffee and cleaned a cupboard out which allowed me to cross one thing off my to do list :)

I am hoping to go for a run when he gets home from work. I will go rain or shine (unless there is a downpour) and if that is the case I will be getting a sitter for M and head to the gym.

I didn't take a picture of today's breakfast. I had a bowl of fibre 1 with 1/2 banana and 1/2 c milk. Now I am going to read some blogs as I drink my coffee.

Hoping for some clearer skies today.

Adding pictures to my blog

2010-10-13T15:17:00.000-07:00

I am going to give it a try adding pictures to my blog and we will see how it goes. I know that pictures make a blog so much more interesting and that is what I would like to do with mine :) I don't have a fancy camera but I have asked for one for c-mas this year and I think that I will be getting it :)

I had a pretty good sleep today but a short one. That is ok since I don't go back until monday and then just work for 2 days and have a week off.

For supper tonight I guess I could call it supper in a bowl

Supper started off with some coconut oil in the frying pan

Then some mushrooms being cooked in the oil

Chopped up some lettuce - chopped salads are the best

added some peppers, onion and turkey to the mushro0ms

some goat cheese to the chopped salad

mix it all together and add a small sweet potato on the top and you have a bowl full of yumminess!!!! Very satifying and healthy meal.

For those who count points I still have 6 left plus some activity points if needed. That is what happens when you sleep most of the day you end up having all these pts in the evening. I think that I know what I will have for an evening snack. WW flat with 1/2 mashed banana and tbsp of pb.

I have a 8K run planned for the morning. I will have to get up pretty early to get that done before K goes to work.

Have a great night everyone

I need to sleep

2010-10-13T07:24:00.000-07:00

Good morning to most people, but good night for me. I just did my 3rd night, had a meeting at m's school and then went to bootcamp. I was only going to do 30 min but managed to get in 40 min. I am beat so I really need to sleep. I am looking forward to a nice bowl of oatmeal when I get up and then going to get the boys.

Night and will check in later.

Had a great run...

2010-10-12T13:51:00.000-07:00

I ran 6 K when i got up today (way to early for being up all night, oh well it is my last night). I was very happy with it. I did it in a great time (may have been a PR for me) and my motivation and legs held out the entire time. I just had a couple of bad runs the last couple of times that I did run but I feel like I have my motivation back :) I really think that the 2 big bad eating sessions I had last week really made me feel like a bit of a failure as I knew how much I was eating was not healthy or smart choices. I am moving on and doing well :)

We are having a bistro at work toinght and I need to remember that if I do well tonight then I am on the home stretch to being able to buy myself a "reward" for having a stellar week with eating :) I am brining in a fruit tray but I will be bringing a few snacks with me incase there aren't many healthy choices tonight.

Tomorrow I have a meeting at 815 in the am at the school. I hope that i get out of work on time to make it for the meeting. If I am going to be late I do have the school number just incase. I then hope to be out of the meeting in time to go to bootcamp at 9. I need to get at least 1 session in as that is all I will be able to do this week as I am away on the weekend (which I am excited about!!!!)

I am figuring out the menu for when my parents and friends of our family will be visiting. I just need one more meal for when my parents are here. The next couple of days I will be very busy cleaning the house. At least the family friends won't be coming until later in the week so I will have some time to do more cleaning for their arrival. I will utilize tomorrow evening and all day thursday which means minimal time on the computer on thursday. Fri will be busy with appts in the morning and heading out in the afternoon for my weekend away.

Well I should be going, my boys will be home soon and I will start supper for them.

Have a great night everyone :)

change in exercise plan

2010-10-12T05:39:00.000-07:00

I am changing up the plan I had for my exercise this week

Tues: run 6 K

Wed: hr long bootcamp after getting home from work

Thurs: 8K run

Fri: 6 K run

Sat and Sun: PHAT camp

We are having bistro as work tonight. I hope there are some healthy choices. I am going to bring a fruit tray but I am thinking that I will need to pack some healthy choices for myself . since I am in between nights I don't really feel like making anything but I guess it depends on what time I wake up.

Great night last night. Time to get some sleep :)

listened to my body today :)

2010-10-11T19:32:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I did my long run of 12K and I really should have taken today off. I headed out for a planned 6K run but my legs felt so tired that I opted for a 3K instead. I listened to my body and am proud of myself for doing that!!!! Tomorrow I will do 6K when I get up and possibly a mini bootcamp. I guess it all depends on when I get up.

My cooler is filled with so me yummy food for tonight which is always good. I do find I get the munchies on my 2nd night and 3rd night (if I am doing that many nights). I do need to eat every couple of hrs to keep myself satisfied.

Not much else to report. Hope tonight is a good night at work.

A beautiful sunday in....

2010-10-10T11:08:00.000-07:00

It is so nice out this thanksgiving sunday. We all slept in and missed church this morning, oops. Once I got out of bed I headed to the trail for a long run. This run was only 12K. When I started out my legs felt very heavy but thankfully they warmed up very quickly. There were lots of people out on the trail this morning. I wish I had gone earlier as I find the day slipping away but it doesn't hurt to sleep in occasionally :)

I did not give in to the munchies last night. I decided that since I was tired to just go to bed and that I did. It sure did not take me long to fall asleep once I got settled. I am so happy that I did not give in. I have 2 days under my belt and am working on the third. I must say that I do have that bad habit of weighing myself everyday but it keeps me motivated or lets me know when I need to step back and reevaluate what I am putting in my mouth. So today when I stepped on the scale I was happy with what I saw and it made me realize that it does not take long to get rid of the lbs when you have a binge or 2. I am really focusing on not having those binges as I know they are not healthy for me and I usually do well eating healthy so why not do it all the time. I wouldn't put crap gas in my car ever so I need to fuel my body with that same mind set.

Since I am starting my nights (doing 3 of them) my meals are a bit off (sleeping in made this happen too).

Breakfast: cereal, milk and 1/2 banana

snack: (post run) orange and 1.5 L of water

Lunch/Supper: (actually an early supper that will be divided in 1/2 - take 1/2 to work) turkey, sweet potato, salad and veggies.

snacks: apple and pb, crustless pumpkin pie (for 1 pt :), pumpkin cookeis (1.5 pts), and not sure what else.

I am going to get a pumpkin spice tea to have at work from tim hortons-I love this tea and think I like it more then the skinny vanilla lattes from starbucks which is actually a great thing since the lattes are so much more costly :)

I am going to have a nice shower once my pumpkin pie is cooked which will be in about 20 min. I am a sweaty mess post my run.

K is doing a great job on the basement reno's :) He was able to paint the new walls :) and get the ceiling on in the bathroom. I will be so excited when that is done. We take so long doing the reno's so we have the cash for it and plus he is so busy with work, side work and now reffing.

Well I am hoping that work is not to crazy the next 3 nights. My last set they were so why should I expect anything different :)

Here is a list of my workout planned for this week:

Monday: Run 6K

Tues: Run 8K

Wed: Run 3K and a mini bootcamp

Thurs: Run 6K

Fri: Run 5K and going to PHAT camp

Sat: at PHAT camp

Sun: at PHAT camp

I don't have a long run schedule for this week since I will be away and I am expecting to do a lot of exercising while at this PHAT camp :) I still have 2 weeks of training after this week before I do my next 1/2 marathon.

Hope everyone has a great thanksgiving weekend :)

not giving in to night time munchies

2010-10-09T18:36:00.000-07:00

Well here I am just sitting down watching the hockey game on TV and checking out blogs. It is 9:30 pm and all I want to do is eat. I know that I am not really hungry but just feeling the urge to munch. I will not give in as I did well yesterday and all day today!!! I should just go to bed so I am not tempted.

Tomorrow morning I am going to get up and head out for a 12K run. I think that I will just do it in town as I would not have time to go in to the city and be back in time for church.

I am hoping that I will have time for a long nap tomorrow before heading to the inlaws for thanksgiving dinner.

back to work...

2010-10-09T04:59:00.000-07:00

We are supposed to have a great weekend weather wise and of course I am at work. Oh well it will help me get back on track eating wise. Yesterday was a great day but I was still feeling like crap because of what I ate on thursday. All that crap that went into my body...not good.

So my foods for today are:

Breakfast: cereal with milk and 1/2 banana

snack: 1/2 banana and yogurt

Lunch: turkey burger, carrots and salsa, orange

Supper: pasta over a salad, clean pumpkin cookies

snack: apple and Kashi bar

It feels great to be getting back in control. I went for a great 6K run this morning and have a 12K run planned for sunday. I am only doing 1 day this set and 3 nights. Next weekend will be PHAT camp so I want my stomach to be feeling great for this event.

I have done so well with my weight loss that I need to stop this emotional/situational eating. When I am at home with M while he is having his group I need to stop sitting at the computer and start doing work around the house. There is plenty of it to be done so I need to do it. Especially this week as we will be having company coming. I just need to pretend that we are moving and I need to have a decluttered and clean house ;)

Well I should sign off for now. I may or may not be on again today. Have a great saturday everyone :)

A Fresh Start...

2010-10-08T04:34:00.000-07:00

The last couple of months I have had some binges that I am not proud of. I know they are totally emotionally driven and I eat so much that I feel shakey which cannot be good for the body!!!! As mentioned last night in my post I am recomitting myself. I know that I can get to 130 lbs if I just stay focused and once I reach that weight I will figure out the best way and healthiest way to maintain it, but first just focus on getting it off. I know that I can have it off by the end of the month if I stick with my clean eating way of living. No more binges and eating crap. It does nasty things to my body ;) if you know what I mean.

Here is my menu for today

Breakfast: cereal

milk

1/2 a banana

Lunch: turkey burger

carrots and salsa

20 grapes

Snack: apple and 1 tbsp of natural pb (measure this and be honest)

Supper: tilapia with pineapple salsa

salad with goat cheese and veggies

sweet potato (may try it baked)

Snack: yogurt

strawberries

***added a banana and my 3 sm pumpking cookies****

this is a very healthy and yummy menu. I will check in just before bed to let you know how I made out.

I was going to buy an outfit as my first reward but have changed it do a new exercise bag (and a couple of tanks from sport check) to take with me to PHAT camp next weekend.

I went to bootcamp this morning and had a pretty good workout. I was a little worried that the gast was going to explode out of me but I managed to not do that, thankfully. That is what all the crap eating does to my insides which is another reason I know that when i eat crap it really hurts my body.

Thankfully I am starting back to work tomorrow which always helps me get back on track.

NO MORE BINGES...SO NOT HEALTHY AND IT DOES NOT FIT WITH MY NEW WAY OF LIVING...EATING.

Reward system

2010-10-07T19:02:00.000-07:00

To help myself out to stay on tract 100% I will give myself rewards for each week that I eat clean :)

I think for my 1st week I will buy a new outfit. The next week a pr of boots :)

Not only will I get little rewards but I will feel awesome too. I will post my eats on my blog.

that is all.

I was having a great day eating until the afternoon hit :(

2010-10-07T12:12:00.000-07:00

mmm my 2nd binge of the week, not good :( I find that when I feel like I can't get out of the house I just eat and eat until I feel sick which is not a good thing at all. I need to find things to keep me busy while M has group at the house. I know that I could be eating worse things that I am so starting tomorrow I am recommiting myself for various of reasons and I need to make a list of goals that I have for myself. I totally get why I eat when I do and now I just need to figure out what to do to keep myself from "caving". By the end of the month I could be at my goal weight and healthy weight of 130 but I can't let these binges hold me back. Portion control is a big issue that I have and I will use that as one of my goals to help me achieve the healthy weight I want and to maintain it. I made 2 yummy clean cookies, but eating a whole bunch at once is not a healthy thing to do. I just need to really get my focus back and I am recommiting to clean eating!!!!

Goals for the rest of the month:

1. 100% clean eating (unless eating out and then just make the best choice)

2. only 1 pop/day

3. intuitive eating

4. track everything I eat

5. continue with my exercise

6. NO BINGING!!!!!!

I think those goals will help me get to 130 lbs by the end of the month.

I have had so much sugar this afternoon I actually feel shakey, not good :(

Tomorrow I have bootcamp so I will work extra hard. I will have supper and then have an apple as my nighttime snack and nothing else. There is no need to eat anything else.

I really need to clean this house!!!!!

2010-10-07T07:10:00.000-07:00

I clearly am spending way to much timeon the computer and neglecting my house work : being on the computer though is so much more interesting ;)

I was up at 6 this morning and went for a run. I didn't think that I would get my full 8K done in time for K to leave for work on time, but I did. I was considering waiting until tonight to go for my run and now I am so very happy that I did it early this morning :) I love early morning workouts.

I ended up having a big ol bowl of oatmeal this morning which I usually save to have after I work nights. I just felt like having it. I am pretty sure it will hold me over until noon which is great. I had 1/4 c steel cut oats (my fave) cooked in 1 c H2O. I added 1/2 banana when it was almost done, a bit of cocoa. Transfered this mixture to a bowl and addes some natural peanut butter and a few walnuts for some crunch. Yummy :)

I am going to make a batch of turkey burgers today. I think that I am done with tuna for a bit. I love those turkey burgers and am quite excited to have one for lunch. I am adding to my collection of recipes from other blogs but what I am really looking forward to is the cookbook of recipes from the clean eating magazine which should be coming this month :)

I am trying to come up with a new name for my new blog that I have decided to start in the new year. I am thinking about "weight watching it clean style" or something like that. I think that it is suitable for me since I have done weight watchers for ever but never did it with the eat clean principle. I think that counting pts is easy but the key for me has been using clean foods as opposed to just conunting the pts for any type of food. I am waiting for the new year to start this blog as I am hoping to get a very nice camera for c-mas from my loving husband :)

I am still waiting to hear if I will get that full time job. I am hoping to hear either today or tomorrow. It will be so very exciting to be full time. I didn't think that I wanted it but I am really looking forward to the benefits and paid vacation :)

The sun is shinning today which is probably why I am feeling great. It is amazing what sunshine can do for ones mood. I am a little sad that I have to work this weekend as it is supposed to be beautiful but someone has to do it. At least I don't work until sunday night which meas I can enjoy my sunday and I have tomorrow off too so I hope to get out a bit and enjoy the nice weather which is why today while M has his group downstairs I need to get some cleaning done. I really need to focus on the kitchen/dinning room today.

so with that being said I am going to sign off for now. Have a great day everyone.

My thoughts on healthy lifestyle blogs

2010-10-06T13:40:00.000-07:00

To sum it up I love them. I find them an inspiration to me in my quest for healthy living and tips to maintain this lifestyle that I have adapted. I love reading them, I love the pictures of the food (who does not like to see pictures of food to go along with recipes), I love the network of support available to those of us who are trying to be as healthy as possible, and the list goes on.

I am sure that there are some unhealthy blogs out there that claim to be healthy ones but we can chose to ignore those ones.

I just want to say thank you to the writers of the blogs that I read and I hope you all keep doing what you love to do!!!!

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Today has been such a better day for me in terms of activity and food consumption. I think that I had about 12 hrs sleep in total yesterday. As soon as K came home from work I went to bed. Woke up at 11 pm, had a snack while watching csi miami and then went back to bed. I went for a 5K run and then after taking the kids to school I did 1 hr long bootcamp. I was only going to do a mini bootcamp but I stuck it out for the hour and so glad I did. I was able to get a bit more cardio and a lot of strength training in.

I did a lot of running around today and bought ingredients to make the pumpkin cookies from greenlitebites blog which are amazing :)

Not much planned tonight. I have to do some major cleaning the next couple of days as I need to have the house clean for when my parents come in 2 weeks.

Have a great night everyone.

food to keep me awake :(

2010-10-05T13:03:00.000-07:00

So I worked last night and it was crazy busy so no breaks and I had to stay up all day today because I forgot that M had his group here today. Needless to say I used food to keep me awake and I didn't really have any healthy good choices in the house. Oh well, just make healthy choices for the rest of my food intake today. It is pretty yucky out and since I did not get much sleep today I am having a rest day today. Nothing wrong with that. I am so tired that it would be wrong of me to attempt to even workout. I have bootcamp in the morning and I probably will do a 5 K before I pick my little man up from school.

I will need to get groceries tomorrow too. I need to go over my list and menu for the week to make sure I buy the right foods.

I can't even think straight to blog.

Loving me some oatmeal :)

2010-10-03T12:58:00.000-07:00

I have been loving steel cut oats lately. Today and yesterday I had it for breakfast. The one today I didn't put in the chocolate peanut butter and it was still as good. I will have it again tomorrow. I will have to use up my pumpking so I am not sure what else I will make with what is left. Maybe I will make the diabetic pumpkin pie but put it in muffin tins so I can have it for easy individual servings.

For supper tonight I was trying to figure out what I was going to have and I decided to have pasta with sausage, goat cheese and veggies and of course some salsa. I love this dish :)

Last night we were short 2 nurses which really sucked. I just hope tonight we are not down to 5 too. I know that one of the people that was sick last night is still sick and I am sure the other one will be too. Maybe they will be able to find some nurses that will want to do OT.

I am hoping to find out this week if I get the full time job or not. It will be so awesome to know that I have it.

I am really hoping for not a very busy night tonight.

A great 16 K run this morning

2010-10-02T09:31:00.000-07:00

Back to the grind today. I headed down to the beachfront trail and ran 16K. So much easier to run a long distance like that when your belly is not full of crap...refering back to my long run disaster last week. It took me a bit longer then I had wanted it too but I need to remember I did just get back from vacation ;)

I had a great bowl of oatmeal this morning. I had steel cut oats with 1/2 banana sliced and stirred together for the last 5 min of cooking. I added a bit of cocoa to that while it was still cooking. For a topping I had pumpkin, nutmeg, cinnamon, ginger and natural peanut butter all mixed together and then some chocolate peanut butter from peanut butter & Co (a find while at whole foods in vegas). This was so yummy and very filling. I won't have to eat my lunch for a bit longer which is perfect since I am working tonight and will be able have a snack late afternoon and then eat my supper at work. i do work the next 3 nights which should be fun.

Before I left for vegas I had a couple of bad days of eating and my stomach felt so full all the time and bloated. I did what I consider excellent while I was away and when I weighed myself this morning I actually was 3-4 lbs less then when I went away :) I may have had more calories then what I normally would consume but the quality of the food was amazing which I do believe plays a very important role. I need to remember that and start making more good quality foods :) I can't wait to get my cookbook from clean eating magazine. I really hope to find some excellent recipes in it.

I hope I get to pick up some groceries today but if not I just need to get some spinach for my supper tonight. Because I did such a big run today I need to make sure to refuel my body according to its needs. I need to do some more research on intuitive eating too. I think intuitive eating and clean eating will be a perfect and healthy way to look at my foods and will help when it comes to those times where all I want to do is eat, even though not hungry.

Well I am going to check out other blogs and then do some cleaning in the kitchen (mostly just the dishes) and then hope K is home and get a nap.

Back from Vegas :)

2010-10-01T16:37:00.000-07:00

I had a great trip to vegas that had great food, great sight seeing and lots of exercising. I ran 2 days and what a way to see the strip. I loved running on the strip :)

I am running 16K in the morning which I am looking forward to. I am going to make sure not to have too much food in my stomach like last week as it led to a very brutal run. I will let you know how it goes.

I am getting so tired right now. I am going to put my little man to bed so that I can go to bed early. I would like to be in bed by 10.

Heading to Vegas in a few hours

2010-09-27T16:17:00.000-07:00

I did pretty good eating today. I did have 2 choc chip cookies though which is ok as long as I keep it at just 2. I know they aren't clean cookies but I don't have any clean cookies in the house. I will make some when I get back from Vegas and freeze them.

I am hoping to not do too much damage when in Vegas. I need to remember what I looked like the last time I was there and how I vowed to myself never to be that person again. I will enjoy my food but I won't go totally crazy. I will try not to have many high sugar content and high calories drinks either. It is so not worth undoing all the great work I have done to my body.

Well I am going to try and have a nap now. I hope to get a couple of hrs in before we head to the airport.

I hope that I can come back and say that the scale was not greatly affected by my trip.

On track again and a great 10 K run

2010-09-26T16:08:00.000-07:00

I had still 10 K left to run today as I had only done 6K this morning. I did end up going after church but I really changed up the route. Running by lake ontario was so awesome and I think that I will be doing my longer runs at this location. It was a perfect day for running. Not to hot but nice and sunny out :) I must say that I was happy with this run. I still felt kind of full but not like I had earlier in the day. I had so much sugar last night that I am very gassy. I need to really sit back and look at what I did to my body last night, how it really made me feel but not to dwell on it to much as I did get right back on track with the clean eating today. That is where I have really made the change. If I really still had my old eating habits I would continue to eat this way for a few days. I am quite happy that I have been able to go to my new way of eating so easily :) I need to remember how my stomach felt today as I will be leaving for Vegas very early tuesday morning. I need to make the smartes choices and really listen to my body when it says that I am satisfied. I do not need to stuff myself silly.

I need to start my to do list and my list of things that I need to bring with me. I am so pumped about this trip.

Have a great night.

Frustrated with myself once again :(

2010-09-26T04:24:00.000-07:00

yeah you guessed right. Way to much food consumption last night, led to a very crappy 6 K run this morning and I had to come home and plan on doing another 10 K later today when my food is more digested. How pathetic is that...all I can do is move on and today is a new day.

We will be going to church this morning and I will do my 10 K run when we get home. I need to do it sooner then later or I will end up not doing it at all. Maybe I will go into Hamilton to run this. I just need to figure out how to get where I want to go.

Not much really planned for today. I will do some cleaning and get all the laundry ready to do tomorrow as I need to pack tomorrow.

That is all for now. I will let you know how the remaining 10K of my 16K run today goes.

a whole week off :)

2010-09-25T13:49:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went for my monthly WI at WW and I stayed the same. I am so very close to 130 lbs. I am going to try something different in october. I am just going to eat as clean as possible and my main goal is to not have any binges at all and we will see if that helps me for my monthly WI in october. I am continuing to do bootcamp and train for my next 1/2 Marathon.

My food intake the last couple of days has been awesome. I love when I have all my meals planned and espeically when they taste so awesome. I took some of the mexican casserole last night for a meal at work that I had frozen and oh my...it is great when food gets better with age :) I had it on top of chopped spinach and a bit of goat cheese. I am so excited for my supper tonight. I will be having what I had last week. Veggies steamed with some water, goat cheese, pasta, salsa and some very yummy sausage (this is such an awesome find and I thank J for letting us know that they are pretty healthy). I have had steel cut oats the last couple of days and they are for sure my favorite type of oatmeal.

I am making some cookies for my boys for when i am gone to Vegas and on Mon I will be making an apple crisp for K to enjoy while I am gone. I am getting so excited about this mini vacation that I will be going on.

Well I must finish up with the cookies and start cooking supper. Have a great saturday evening.

Oh yeah, will be doing a 16K run tomorrow.